Im 15 and i got sexually assualted by a man i dont really know. Please help me?

• im 15 and on the subway, a mid- 20 year old guy said my backpack was unzipped. He zipped it for me, and he says hes going to New York to visit his sister, and ask that i help him around if he ever got there. He seemed sincer, and i am a stupid and naive little girl, so i gave him my contact info so i can later help him around the city. He says he was gratful, and said he would buy me coffee. AGain, lik i said, i only have the mind of a 5 year old, and all i thought to myself was, "sweet, i get free food." and he bought me coffee. He said he wanted to learn more about my religeon, so i said ill get my bible from my house. He follwed me. Noone was home. He went into my room and sat on the bed and took his jacket off and loosened his tie. I told him to get off my bed, becuase... welll.. i sleep there. He suddenly pulled me towards his lap. I pulled back, suddenly feeling really frightened and stupid. He asked me if he could hug me. I said i dont feel comfortable, and he could leave right now. He suddenly pulled me over to the bed and started to touch me in places where i told him to stop. He grabbed my head and tried to kiss me then put his toung in my mouth. He smelled like ciggarrets and i was terrified to do anything but shakily try to push him off. I forgot all the self defense i have lkearned. I had a p[en in my pocket, and i grasped it, ready to stab him, but what if he got really mad and killed me or something. I almost stopped breathing and almost peed in my pants and struggled to get free but couldnt really do much. I shouted that my grandparents were coming home any minuet, and then he stopped and then headed towards the door. He said he would go if i went escoreted him out to the elevator. He then started to wrap his arms around me and touch my chest. But he finally left. But after hes gone, i feel like i have to throw up. And my head hurts lik crazy nad its really difficult to breath. He dint really physically hurt me, but mentally, i was unable to grasp myslf. I dont want to end up crazy in a mental hospital. I have no idea what to do. I cant tell my parents becuase my mom will be very scared and my dad would probably take serious measures. My parents dont even let me watch PG 13 movies, and dont allow me to date until im 25, and im pretty much a goody two shoes, so i do what they tell me to do. I am in shock and dont know what to do. And maybe the only reason im doing this is to let it pout of me, becuase i cant tell anyone and its exploding iside me. Or maybe im asking for what to do next. I dont know. He hads my number and know where i \live and said we should meet next week. I am very scared. 1 minute ago - 4 days left to answer. Additional Details and yes, i know im very idiotic and shallowminded. i cannot overempasize that, buts thats primarily becuase i trust everyone. And he 's keep calling me right now. 1 second ago

• Answer:

  Turn off your phone and don't stay in your house unless an adult is there to!! Just go out with them when they go out. Keep a knife under your bed also. Just go over it in your head sort everything out make plans. It was just a mistake everybody makes mistakes don't beat yourself up about it. good luck!