My parents found out about my suicide attempt/cutting. (Sorta long, serious answers only please)?

I know your going through a rough time right now, but death is a very selfish fix for something that might not be permanent. They could find out what's wrong with you tomorrow or in a year from now, my point is don't give up. If your friends don't have time for you EFF them, they were never true to begin with. One of my mom's friend, lost a child she was 14 or 15 to an overdose and she died two years later, from "natural causes," which I assume was a broken heart. She was only 45 I think. My point is, why put your parents and sibling through this, they're messed up enough because of your illness. I know it seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel but keep the faith, one day everything will be clear and you will be so thankful you never did kill yourself. Also, I think cutting is horrible, quit it, it's not helping you or anyone else. BQ: I think it's sad that people cut, it's an easy way out to me but then again I don't know anyone who cuts so I can't really talk from experience. THAT WHICH DOESN'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER. Also, if you want a friend, even though we don't know each other, you can email me! I'll listen! Just don't do anything rash. Think it through take it one day at a time. Edit: Good, just keep thinking of her :] She loves you so much and it's evident from your post. Don't let her down! My email is [email protected] if you want to talk - not forcing you, just realized I didn't type it!

I think you should stick with therapy. Try finding online support groups for people who self-harm. Next time you feel like hurting yourself, write down all the bad things that'll happen if you hurt/try to kill yourself. Replace your cutting and burning with a good distraction. Maybe write on a blog or you can get an ice cube and it where you want to hurt yourself. Do some of the things you use to like to do when you were younger. BQ: I don't think badly of people who cut. They need someone to listen to them. They need love, not criticsim. :) *hugs* I may not know you but please don't hurt yourself! I want you to live. Do it for your mommy! She loves you so much! And I haven't forgotten your email you sent me :D I'll read it and reply in the morning, ok? Please don't hurt yourself :( we never finished our conversation.

Hi there! I'm really sorry that you're going through all of this, but death is permanent. There's no coming back. You seem like a really intelligent person with a bright future ahead of you and I'm sure the doctors will find some way to help you. How long have you been sick if you don't mind me asking? I have tons of health problems too. Not as bad as yours though. I can't say I know how you feel since I'm not you, but I will say I understand how it feels to be sick, suicidal, and hopeless. Your mother cares about you quite a bit and her life and feelings are important too. Think about the things you DO have in life. The good things. Instead of cutting try expressing your emotions in a different way. Keep a journal. Listen to music that relates to how you're feeling. Take a cold shower. Play with a pet (If you don't have one- I suggest getting one) Find out what's triggering it. Distract yourself. Drawing is a really good distraction. Find something you love to do. Find a hobby. Set goals. I know it's hard to think that your life is gonna get anywhere because of your health problems, but what if it does? You'd be missing all of that. Self harm can actually cause infections which will make your health even worse. I'm sorry that your friends don't want to be around you. They're not real friends then. Have you ever tried joining a club or something? Or can you not do that because of the health problem? If you can get out, try volunteering for something. It will make you feel good. Please don't blame yourself for anything. This isn't your fault at all. I don't understand why your mom is always crying. That's probably making it worse. Talk to her about it. Tell her that she needs to stop. As for your father I think it would help if you formed a better relationship with him. Try talking to him more. Don't be afraid to show your emotions. It's good that you're getting counseling. Keep it that way. Stay strong. Easier said than done. I know, but what if your life gets better? If you don't kill yourself I can assure you that 10 years from now you'll be saying to yourself "Thank God I didn't do it". I really hope the doctors can find a way to help you. Another thing...Movies. Movies are a really good way to escape your own life for 2 hours. They put you into someone else's life. If you get really into the movie it's like you become them. You feel what they feel. Try watching a lot of funny movies. You should also know it's ok to cry. It's good for you sometimes, but try not to do it too much. Sometimes that can make you think of more and more things to be upset about. You seem like such a sweet kid and you don't deserve this. You could make such a difference in this world. If the doctors find a diagnosis/cure for you it could really help people in the future who have the same problem. Good luck with everything and email me if you need more advice. -hugs- <3

oh my god, this seriously just about broke my heart. i feel soooo much for you. NO, you are not selfish. NO, you should NOT feel bad. i dont think anyone can possibly understand what youre going through at all. if anyone has the right to feel suicidal, it's you. i'm not saying it's a good thing and obviously it's not, but it's totally understandable. and NO, you're not ruining anyones life. if they have no compassion for you, then they're complete and total @$$holes with no heart. people care about you.. your mom *clearly* does. and your dad does too, even if he doesn't know how to express it. if he didn't care about you i doubt he'd care that you were cutting yourself. don't put them through that pain by committing suicide. just don't. please. also, not to be creepy, but i was looking at your profile a while ago and i noticed that you like radiohead, which is pretty much my favorite band of all time, sooo i looked up one of the other bands you listed there and found this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tcl1PCaxFFw (and this is the really creepy part, sorry). i read the first comment and im assuming that's you. isn't it? i swear im not a stalker, haha, but that sounds just like your story and you like that band...? againnnnn, i apologize for the stalker-ness. :/

....this too shall pass. Just think, the doctors may discover what is wrong with you and be able to treat you and then, because of you, be able to treat other people.

Killing yourself (or harming yourself further) would not fix anyone's problems. You see your mother now? Think about what it would be if you 'were' gone. She'd be absolutely devastated. People only see the parents of suicide victims who turn it into a lesson and go into public by turning it into a learning experience. Not everyone gets through it like that. Most people live the rest of their lives in constant, agonizing pain. Don't do that to your parents. Doctors discover new technologies/cures/abilities to diagnose every day. It may not be much longer before you are on your way to recovery. You can do it. You are a strong person. BQ: I feel like they have a pain that I can't even imagine, and I could never handle.

If I could use only one sentence to point you toward lasting happiness it would be this: True happiness can only be found in God, for only He can meet the deepest yearnings of our hearts. Let me explain. You see, we aren't on this earth by accident. God created us, and He put us here for a reason: to know Him and to enjoy His presence in our lives, both now and throughout eternity. God even created us with an empty place in our hearts—an empty place that He alone can fill. The Bible says, "He has also set eternity in the hearts of men" (Ecclesiastes 3:11). Whenever we try to fill that empty place with anything or anyone other than God, we are bound to fail. No matter how many things we have or how successful we are, that empty place is still there. But when we come to Christ, we discover that God loves us, and He makes us part of His family. More than that, He comes to live within us by His Holy Spirit. Think of it: God wants you to be part of His family forever—beginning now. By faith turn to God and tell Him that you know you need Him. Then open your heart and life to Christ and ask Him to fill the empty places in your life. Jesus promised, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives" (John 14:27). Turn to Christ today and discover the joy and peace He alone can give. David [email protected]

HEY SWEETHEART. i am crying to myself becuz i just read this. u are so young and have so much to learn. i beg of u please dont hurt urself. i know how it feels to lose someone to suicide. my cousin killed his self and it made things worse. i am so sorry u feel that u make problems for people. just take a breath and relax. i know the drs will find a cure to ur problem i just know it. i am here for u if u ever ever need to talk. and yes i know u dont know me and i dont know u but please just dont hurt urself. we can become friends and have a friendship and i know there are plenty of people willing to become ur friend not becuz we feel sorry for u but becuz everyone could use a new friend. please email me [email protected] if u need to talk or anything! ***hugs*** everything is going to be ok sweety just relax

Your Answer: Ok well I read your P.S's and nice for posting them. Listen Im 17 and from Nebraska I have a friend that is suicidal and i have to check and pray every night that one night she doesn't really do it and im scared. Your parents love you as much as you dont think they do they truley do. Your going to have to give your parent a week or so to get it together. I promise they will find out what is wrong. You say that you are sick of hurting everyone what would your mom and dad do if they found you in your room dead really... they would feel so much worst. They would blame everything on them. Your friends would be ashamed at what they did. I have lost enough friends to know. When times get rough friends go running. Everyone is beautiful no matter what you do in life. You can fight the pain of your illness if you can cut... My cousin hung himself not to long ago because he had no friends his parents lost track of him and know one knew what was going on. I wish we would of talked more and i would of know what i do know but i dont and thats something i have to live with do you want your parents to go through losing a child. NOOOO.... I promise you have a whole life ahead of you. Just be strong its ok to cry heck i do it all the time. Fight til the end it will be worth it I wanna talk more so if you do need a friend im here @ yahoo email [email protected]