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I got home from Afghanistan, my buddy got killed there. I cant sleep, crying & depressed, I get nightmares?

  • Umm hi. I'm Austin. I'm a 24 year old Corporal in the Marines. I recently returned back to MCAS Yuma after another deployment to Afghanistan. While I was out there, one of my good buddies from my unit unknowingly stepped on a landmine while were both on patrol. He had his legs mangled and blown off. I tried my best to keep him conscious until the medics came, but he kept slipping in and out of consciousness, and a lot of his blood got on my uniform while he was in my arms I did everything I could do to help him. He died a few hours later in surgery. I feel so bad I couldn't help him anymore, and I feel responsible in a way too because I didn't even see the mine or anything, and I was looking the other way, and all I heard was the explosion. I thought it was the Taliban firing on us. I can't stop heard was the explosion. I can't stop thinking about that day now. Ever since then I haven't been right. I have barely been able to sleep anymore. I just lay there in bed staring at the ceiling, or sometimes I'll lay there listening to my iPod hoping it will put me to sleep. I can barely keep my eyes open during the day. I'll be at PT or the gym or the chow hall or something and I can barely see straight. Then its back to my room and I repeat laying in bed all night awake again. I went to a doctor here on base and he just gave me some sleeping pill called Visteril. It helped me sleep, but I'm scared to take it because everytime I do I keep getting really bad nightmares. One night I got one so bad that while I was half asleep still I somehow grabbed a pencil that was on my nightstand and stabbed myself right through my boxers I was wearing in bed and came within inches of missing a major artery in my leg. Another night I woke up screaming and crying and I was soaked in sweat. Sometimes I'll just start breaking down crying and I can't help it. It just happens. and I was soaked in sweat. Sometimes I'll just start breaking down crying and I can't help it. It just happens. I went back to the doctor down here on base, and I told him all this. I asked him if I could have PTSD, and he said no its all in my mind and to keep taking the Visteril. He told me only people who get shot can get PTSD. The other week I went back up home to Billings to see my mom and dad for the first time in over a year, and I told my dad all this for the first time. It was the first I've ever broke down crying in front of my dad. I think he somewhat understood since he was in the Persian Gulf War. I really felt humiliated crying in front of my dad like that. But he told me everything will ok, and that I will get through this. But I feel like I'm getting worse. All the doctors down here at the base in Yuma seem like they don't care and they just brush me off. I just keep not being able to sleep at night and living on Monster and Amp energy drinks during the day and crying all the time. I'm kind of afraid to talk to my CO or anyone else in my unit about this too because I'm so scared of what they will think about me. I'm scared if I do that I'm going to be kicked out of the Corps. I know there are things and people to help with this, but it just seems ike nobody here at my base cares, or anybody in the Marines all together I know this is like a stupid pitiful sob story but it seems like nobody wants to listen and I figured it might help getting it out. I'm so scared of losing my career in the Corps over this though. I get told I don't have PTSD because I didn't get shot, so I don't know anymore. I told one of my friends who works as a waiter back home in don't know anymore. I told one of my friends who works as a waiter back home in Billings and he just laughed at me and said I was funny, which makes me feel even worse now. I've seen a lot of things in Afghanistan that no one should ever have to see, and I feel so horrible I really am sorry everyone to bore you with this, I know this is like a book now. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm also more than likely facing a 3rd deployment to either Iraq this time or back to Afghanistan again after my reassignment to Camp Pendleton from Yuma is completed next month. I am doing my best to get the help I can, but I have to go through so much red tape in the process.

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    "He told me only people who get shot can get PTSD" that is BS!!! I have 5 tours in Afghanistan, I was shot at, I was hit on my second tour. I've seen some of my troops in flag drapped boxes... And I had PTSD BEFORE my first tour. I'm not to familiar on how the US military works, but maybe you should talk to a Padré, here they have the authority to jump up the chain of command. He could help you find a doctor that will help you, he could support you, he could help you with this. Visteril is ****, don't quite them like that, but try to get something else. They put me on effexor and attivant for the first year. I really didn't like them and I manage to get off of it in a year but I know that it works for many people if your doc is not a pusher. Get counseling, change doctors, open up to people, talk, keep smiling, find something to hold on too and always remember that you are not alone and you are loved by a lot of people that are there to help and support you. Where I'm from, they don't kick you out for having a PTSD, they help you. They know too well that someone with PTSD that has no help and support can be dangerous and unstable. They prefer to give them the ressources they need, sometimes they make them change trade, sometimes they don't. They usually put you on light taskings, not pat platoon but light work for the unit and they gradually intergrate you back. I sure hope it's like that for the US military too because traumatised people don't deserve to be left alone like that. But don't worry, their is light at the end of the tunnel. It's very hard I first, I'm not gonna lie, but it gets better. Just don't give up, don't think you are alone.

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You doctor is a quack. Not just people who get shot get PTSD, anyone who has seen or been through anything traumatic may get it. First off, you aren't alone. Go to Military Once Source.com, they have a link where you can talk to someone. I would also suggest seeing a different doctor or a counselor. Do it now before your next deployment. Good Luck, Brother.

Blue

Well bro, would you want your buddy to be like that if he had lived and you had died? It will be ok. Try going to a christian church like baptist, because no human drugs or doctors can help your soul. They just cover up the problems. As for the first answerer. Screw you. The only time you've deployed is in a video game

newname

It sounds to me like you do have PTSD, your doctor is talking absolute rubbish if he says only people who get shot can have PTSD. I would suggest you find a counsellor or therapist who is a specialist in this area. I am a counsellor and I know for a fact that you can have PTSD if you have been through any kind of trauma. I am sending you links to some websites they are from the UK but have good information on there. A type of therapy called EMDR is very, very good for treating PTSD, I will also send some info. on this. But it does sound like you need some professional help, I do hope you get the help and support you need. http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinfo/problems/ptsd/posttraumaticstressdisorder.aspx http://www.ptsd.org.uk/ Here is some info. on EMDR, it is from an American site so hopefully you can find some info that will help you on here: http://www.emdr.com/ You need to realise that you did everything you could for your friend, that all the feelings you are having are a normal response to trauma. You need to find some supportive professional to help you with these feelings you are having. x

Jude

First off I wanna say thank you so much for what you have done for your country. It's good to know that the US is safe thanks to dedicated men and women like you are. Now, I'm not a vet, but I have had training in psychology and sociology, and I can definitely say that you have PTSD. There are are thousands, literally thousands of returning soldiers showing signs of PTSD, so you are not alone. regarding your diagnosis, I have heard of a "coverup" regarding PTSD in the military, where they do everything they can do not diagnose PTSD to soldiers. The military is quickly running out of available troops, hence multiple deployments, and trying everything they can to keep soldiers in the field. Giving sleeping pills and antidepressants keep soldier with PTSD longer on the field. Also, you don't have to be shot to have PTSD, thats a lie. I suggest going to doctors not affiliated with your camp and get their opinion. What are you afraid of? You served 2 deployments, you did your counrty proud, its them that failed you. I suggest you talk it over with other soldiers on an online PTSD forum. Just type PTSD in google and you'll find tons of forums dedicated to helping our returning vets.

freefalling_00

Look at the link I gave you in your last quesiton. It has an assessment if you believe you have PTSD. I also gave the link to militaryonesource. EDIT: Looks like you deleted it. http://www.militaryonesource.com/ http://www.afterdeployment.org/web/guest

lconnor65

Hey Devil Dog. I know this is hard. I too have had problems from my last time over there. You have to take care of yourself. Tell your Squadleader, Platoon Sergeant. Relate the story, they may already know it. Your inability to sleep is guilt. You couldn't save your friend. Yes, sad, but you are alive. You can get better for his sake. Because you survived, your family cares. Did you contanct his family and cry with them? This can help to heal. I know I will have to go back. I will be leading many troops. I am afraid for them. But I will do all I can. Find help, therapy, groups, anything to help you cope.

Sugerman

First I want to tell you there is no need to be sorry to everyone out here. It is what we are here for. WE need to thank YOU, for your contribution to the US Military for being a Marine! Next, pay no attention to the spoiled little Troll brats out here that try to take you down further. They are idiots and have no clue as to what they are talking about. Now for you: It appears you have some good information out here, specifically those who have been there or those who know who you can contact for help. I don't want to take up too much of your time to repeat some of things others have said. So I will tell you what I have learned, First, Let it OUT, go ahead, cry if you have to, tell anyone that will listen as this is part of the HEALING process. Counseling is the best course. Crap, I wasn't shot however I had been diagnosed with PTSD, as well as depression from a Trauma while NOT serving. I know it hurts like hell, but, the good sign I see is that you are willing to deal with it and not shove it under the carpet until it festers and bites you in the ***. Like my ex did, that is when I became the brunt of it, he was a combat Vet, went totally ballistic and left me crippled after he almost killed me. I was bedridden for years. So listen carefully, I am sorry you lost your Buddy, I am deeply saddened for you and his family. Be aware, you did the very best you could do at the time, it's not your fault, we are human, we cannot be all seeing and hearing of everything. Crap happens, yes it sucks, but you did not do it. Now think for one moment, if the shoe were on the other foot, and your Buddy survived, what would he want for you? THAT is what you need to concentrate on at this time. The next thing you need to do for you is give yourself the time you need to grieve, it's a normal process, but allow yourself to grieve. Grief alone can give you many of your symptoms on top of a PTSD. You may be suffering from a combo of Post Traumatic Stress coupled with Grief,. but not necessarily have the disorder itself. Time and Counseling, Support groups, Family, Friends will all help. You need a good Support backup now. Use whatever resources you can. Go easy on yourself Marine. It WILL be OK, You WILL get better, one day at a time. Best Wishes, Makkie

Makkie

Sounds like your doctor is full of sh*t. More than likely you do have PTSD. I am not trying to tell you to take advantage of a horrible situation, but you can be medically discharged and compensated generously for the rest of your life with a condition like this. Talk to your Dr, again about this and if he continues to deny the fact that you have mental issues because of this then you need to request a different primary care manager. I am very sorry to hear about your friend, but now you need to try and take care of yourself. This kind of thing can haunt someone forever if they wont give you the right kind of help. Remember these Navy doctors ar officers and politicians and just trying to save money so it looks good on them. You have to worry about yourself because no one else is going to do it for you. Good luck.

Yes, you have PTSD... the military doesn't like to diagnose that because of the misguided notion that it is a war created mental reaction. People who have never been in war have PTSD.... women develop PTSD from traumatic rapes, childhoods, abusive parents, husbands and siblings. It physically hurts me to read your story because that is hell. That kind of mental anguish is worse than anything these hardened old men telling you to "suck it up" will ever experience. When you make it through this (which you will, but only with proper treatment, and unfortunately that means psychiatrists), you will be mentally tougher than any Navy SEAL. =) You are going to have to sacrifice something... your career or yourself. That's your decision. and I know it's a tough one. But you are NOT going to get the help you need there. Good luck!

Lilli Goat

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