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Advice needed please I just can't function?

• I am 16 years old. please hear me out before you disregard my plea because of my age. I have had my wonderful boyfriend for 1 year. i will name him "jacob" for privacy concerns, and hes not so much stepped out of line, just the expected 16 year old guy things. And i really do have a friendship with him. the issue i'm having is i am conflicted between my current boyfriend and a guy whom i will call "casper" also for privacy issues. wow well me and him never faught and i feel so guilty for even having these thoughts. jordan has done so much for me but sometimes i feel like he doesnt understand my background. I was a cutter since i was 11 and i have two moms who are very controlling. yes they are my parents and i love them and it might be me being a teenager thing. who knows? maybe locking kids in their room for the day is perfectly normal. or calling u a whore, but thats besides the point. i dont have anywhere to turn... anyway, me and casper my previous bf didnt work out because he moved so unexpectadly that he didnt know until the day of. and its been 3 years and i still cant get him off my mind. we have just shard so many personal moments and we only shared one kiss. (we talked a lot and nothing else crossed our minds at the time) he is an amazing friend and i still have this part of me that wants to be with him... but then i think about jordan and i just don't know how to settle my conflict. do i love whats good for me? do i stay single for a while and think about my actions? but then do i want to waste a very healthy relationship with a guy that i see possibilities with? you see jacob (my current bf) has minor self control issues and casper is way more layed back. im genuinely concerned for my well being. i just want casper out of my head and just be friends with him. and i can't just leave the relationship ties altogether after all hes done for me over these years. and jacob is sort of socially awkward like me but he can still fit in with the popular crowd not that that bothers me or makes any difference but if you know me you know im not socially awkward im just socially inept. im just so shy and i cant believe im resourcing to the internet for this but i just... i cant talk to my mom because ever since casper left unexpectedly i was crushed and she blocked all his numbers i can only talk to him via facebook occasionally. im begging for someone to see reason in this. im a very logical person and im not one to fall in love so easy. i gave everything to my current boyfriend jacob (if u know what i mean) and i just feel so lost and i feel so stupid! i never had to deal with being the kid. i was just the screw - up who cut herself and that no one gave two sh**s about. excuse my language. im over the edge and so antsy. my gut tells me to cut everyone off and start over but that seems childish. my heart tells me to go run after my best friend casper. but my reasoning says to wait and see if things with jacob can form into something brighter. because its only dim and clouded because im so lost. it would be a whole lot easier if these two guys werent so different. they are two very different beings and they attract the good sides of me i just dont know what to do from this point. i cant keep wasting sleep and not eating over this. its physically hurting me. please. someone tell me a reasonable thing to do.

• Answer:

  You don't need to keep your current boyfriend as a safety net. If you're just keeping him around because it's a healthy relationship or because you don't know if things will work out with "Casper" then that won't end up well. If you really love/like the current boyfriend then that's fine. But don't keep someone as a safety net. And don't stress so much. This may seem like a huge deal in the moment but take a few breaths and think more realistically. If things don't work out between any of these guys, so what. Move on. I promise you'll find more guys you like and more that like you back. Do you even know if "Casper" feels the same way about you? Don't give up something good, that you love, just for curiosity. But if you're ready to give your current boyfriend up then do so. I know it's hard since he did help you.. But using him is worse than that. When I say using I'm referring back to the safety net idea. But try to relax. If you don't learn to relax during these times now, you'll be suffering for the rest of your life. Everyone will always have something they need to deal with in their life. You just gotta work through them in a reasonable manner. You'll be okay. And it's fine to be upset over these kind of things. Just don't overdo it.