Is it fun being an English teacher?

I'm an esl student in united states.I'm struggling in math and my male teacher looks like he doesn't care.?

• Hi I'm 18 years old, junior. it has been tough year for me. Last week, after school I approach my male teacher and told him I'm having trouble in his class like I don't get that ?this ?and I could read in his eyes that he doesn't know what to do or I'm just making him uncomfortable because i’m an esl student.by the way I'm the only female Asian in his class,I could not really tell what i really want to say because of my English, every time I talk to people I forget it and stutter, and that's what happened. then i stupidly cried in front of him because he mention “how's school treating me?” and I just breakdown, he doesn't know it was a touchy subject. It wasn't his fault at all. It was all me. I did my best not to cry because he'll see my vulnerable side, His gestures are trying to be sympathetic (he looks like his annoyed by it and panicked) but too calm, his eyes were all around telling me signs his not comfortable of whats happening. I shouldn't have cried.He told me that I'm overwhelmed and just relax not to worry too much. He is definitely right. After That we got to the counselor talk about changing my class to more lower level of math I don't know if it's right to give up on algebra 2.   In his class I just don't know what to do, do I need to my this homework, participate in a quiz it makes me sad, the mean girls in the back where making fun of me,they were talking about me not receiving this quiz sheet, my teacher didn’t give me one and I dont know if he did it on purpose because I'm sitting in front of the class. I'm the only student who didn't make the quiz that day he even asked in front of the class if someone didn't get the quiz sheet.obviously I'm the only one, I just stared at him with this mixed emotions offended, sad, angry and just laughed at myself. How stupid I was I should have approach him but I just can't I was too stunned, my confidence gone,I'm embarrassed and my English is worse and the girls at the back are giggling. I want to melt myself and disappear forever in that class. I don't know if this teacher even care how I feel and how I think. Last night I emailed him because I can't sleep, I typed all the things I felt in his class and how it confused me and the girls who were making fun of me. I don't expect him to pity on me or pretend he care, I just need his help. Today after school I was in the driveway, I'm on my way to home and then he appeared out of nowhere running, I know he saw me. He even glance in his side and just run like nothing happened.I don't know if he already read my email but I don't think he care, he’s a substitute teacher his in his 20s and I'm  an esl student who have nothing in my side to guide me. (I tried to talk about this to my parents but they just said if you can't do it, were going back home, and it saddened me because they don't listen, they never think hows school effecting me) how I wish I want to go home.  If you are this male teacher what do you think? What will you do when you see your student in frustration? how would you feel? Would you even care?  I don't know what to do, I don't want to go back in his class it's embarrassing,he never approach me or explain something clearly. He might be waiting for me to come first and asked but coming here in the us, talking, socializing make me want to hide myself, my confidence is lost and I can't speak english fluently.  I can't sleep..I'm tired of crying. I can't concentrate in my other classes. I want to end all my worries.  Sorry for my English.

• Answer:

  I'm guessing that your young male teacher is uncomfortable being alone with an 18 year old female student. Can you transfer to a class with a female teacher? If not, can you bring a male with you when asking for help or receiving help from your teacher. That might make him a lot more comfortable.