How would you describe zionism?

How would others describe you on the outside? How would you describe yourself on the inside? ?

• For example.. People see you as athletic, talented, smart person, good looking, and a good role-model. In the Inside you yourself have your own world, you are your own man/woman, you hate this world that it is such an awful world of misery to live in, You secretly want to die because there will be peace, you please others but deep down you must act what on the outside seems socialy right. How would others describe you on the outside? How would you describe yourself on the inside?

• Answer:

  I think others see an insecure, intelligent, odd person who is cute but overweight. I think I am all of those things, but also a very angry person who wants revenge on those who hurt me. I just try to keep that anger from overflowing and touching the people I love. Even if it hurts me physically or emotionally to do so. Wow, I never put that thought into words before.