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Is this normal? Whats wrong with me?

• I always want to make people feel bad for me, or envy me. i always wanna be better. Also i really like pissing people off. I like to argue just to irritate people and like make myself seem better.... idk i sound crazy. I promise i love people, and i like being social, i just really like being awesome... If i'm with my best friends (who i've known for life) i always try and get sympathy or seem better. Like if they are talking about getting their licenses (which i do not have, and don't want to get) i get upset and try and make it obvious i'm mad. Then i try and make them feel bad cuz i guess it makes me feel like i'm right and their wrong. Its really stupid and i wish i was better. So what the heck? is this normal? whats wrong with me? I am a junior in high school, and i am constantly in my friends shadows. I have HORRIBLE self esteem thanks to the sweet hearts that tortured me all my life up until about 8th grade. I'm not as smart, pretty, nice, or popular as any of my friends so i'm pretty much always jealous of others. It sucks and i wish i could see my self worth. I'm really blunt and rude sometimes, so i make everything a joke so i can be blunt without upsetting others. People think i'm funny, and i look out for my friends. I love doing things for people, i just really try and be better then everyone. so yeah, whats wrong with me? is it normal to want to be be the envy of everyone and love to make people mad or pity me? I hate being nice and i love to be right. Whats up with me? (by mad i mean, i don't like to start fights, i just like when people role their eyes at me and groan with irritation.)

• Answer:

  You want attention. You want to better your self confidence.