Is there a way to find past school year schedules?

How can i motivate myself to go to school and to do good in school?

• I'm 15 years old and i have had bad problems with truancy (not going to school) in the past. I have a probation officer and i have seen a judge twice and they say that if i miss anymore days of school i'm going to a placement. All year i have been good, went to school everyday. Then i saw the judge for the first time and i started f*cking up. I have been truant 7th, 8th, and 9th grade year. But this year i was fine now i'm f*cked. I'm failing all of my courses and frankly i don't give a sh*t. I'm 2 seconds from smoking all the weed i can get and not going to school until they take me away. I can't find a good way to motivate myself to go to school and get a good education. Like I've said i don't give a crap about anything anymore. I don't care about my future or anything. (So don't say my future is enough motivation) Sometime's i think about jumping in front of an oncoming train. I know my life isn't that hard all i have to do is go to school and do good but i can't find any motivation. Oh and to those who call me a b*tch, walk in my shoes you c*cksucker. All my life my dad has abused me and now just a couple days ago he was taken out of my house. So now i have no 'excuse' to miss school or do bad. Still no motivation. It seems when i smoke weed (not before school) i go to school on time no problem. But now i have a probation officer so i can't smoke. That's when i started f*cking up. Someone please give me some motivation. Also, i am overweight and have no girlfriend. But i'm am quite social if i want to be. Also, i was tested for iq and i have 132 iq (not to brag but that shows i can actually do the work just no motivation.) Thank you for reading my that whole thing :) (if you did) Now can you please help me out some?

• Answer:

  Er... why don't you start with getting some help? Especially if your father abused you. You really shouldn't be smoking weed or whatever. How about your motivation be not completely messing up your life? Because, seriously...