I am a 19 year old male who had brain cancer, and has neuropothy and ataxia.?

Well, I can't really help you with anything but you considering suicide. No matter how bad things are, don't commit suicide. I struggled with depression for a long time, and always thought of suicide and wanting death, but I didn't commit suicide. Not a way to die. As for the depression, talk to someone about it. Just don't kill yourself man, it's not worth it.

It's possible you had low dose chemo for over a year, but you did not have radiation anywhere near a year. You're on tramadol which is an opiate like pain medication. After all your questions, it almost sounds like you're just trying to get drugs.. The tumor is gone, according to your other questions. Chemo side effect is neuropathy. Don't know about the ataxia unless your tumor was in part of the brain that controls balance and coordination. They aren't gonna give you what you had right after surgery, which was morphine. They gave me dilaudid to bring home after my surgery, not for long term use.

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