What would you think about copying ideas for commerce?

I over think stuff wich leads me to fail at everything.... any ideas ?

• im 17 in my senior year... ive failed about all my exams since the 5th grade... maybe even before that... my parents would try anything to help me... my parents actually paid for tutors more than they paid for school... and i wont lie... there is a point where i gave up... which was in the 9th grade... i stopped trying to study... and just gave up... although i got about the same grades i got when i tried to study really hard in the past years, in the tenth grade i started studying again... thinking that this time it would be different... that this time im actually going to get a better grade... and since i worked pretty hard... i hyped up my final marks... i expected high grades and then got disappointed... the same thing happened... where i would get the same grade i got when i wasnt even trying and im not talking about Cs... im talking about Ds and Fs... i had to go to summer school again.... so the nest year in the 11th grade i decided to lower my expectations to the point of passing by a good amount... but i studied twice as hard....and the same thing happened... another year of summer school which was really depressing since my family consists of A students.... i keep over thinking!! when im in class when im having a test and even when i try to sleep... my mind just goes too deep into stuff... i notice the smallest insignificant details that no one notices and that opens another branch of thought... which leads to another branch and so on.... till i realize that ive reached a whole different topic!!!! and all that is in class or maybe in the car or when i try to sleep.... and in tests my over thinking leads me to mess up and mix up stuff... which takes up alot of the time i was given.... so i try to take my time and relax and let it be... wich gets the questions right... but takes up MUCH more time... im in my senior year now and im sure that in about all of my exams ive done in the past years, the last page is left empty!... and i realize now that when i used to be kid around the 3rd or forth grade... i used to always finish last when copying from the board and girls would take my notebook and write for me so the teacher could erase the board and move on with her teaching.... and i used to be really embarrassed... that happened everyday!! and now that i think about it... i used to copy from the board letter for letter... memorizing them before writing them on the paper... because i was in a whole different place in my mind... it was like i was drawing whats written on the board..... anyways.... this has been my curse since birth and i have no idea whats wrong and how to deal with it.... im about to graduate highschool and i honestly dont know if colleges would accept me... one more thing... i am not dumb... i am very clevver when it comes to the things i love.... back to the topic... im an observer... i sit back and watch people think and act the way they do, i watch how the world turns around and i watch how it works...... thats why i love in depth subjects that are interesting and can answer all my questions, like psychology, physics, computer programming, and computer engineering.... anyways thanks alot for reading through all this and id really appreciate some help and guidance. thank you and peace out.

• Answer:

  Too long to read--get to the point.