I have some problems..?

the moment you say suicide, you need to get some help. get a therapist and he/she will help you straiten out your life

Well you sound like a pretty cool, smart person to me...just really down. Hava chat to your dr and he/she will refer you to either psychologist or psychiatrist. The difference between the 2 is the pyschiatrist can prescribe medication if you need. Ive been to both before I felt like I was crazy but found it very resurring to hear that I wasn't crazy because theres was a solution wether it be through talking or meds :) and also that other people go through the same things made me feel like I wasnt alone. You sound like your going through a very hard time but strike me as a toughy so make sure you see your doc and u be ok:) you will return to your normal social self.

get a therapist(sp) and if you don't have enough money or some lame-*** excuse call 1-800-suicide

Grief related depression (Loss of brother, and relationship) seems likely. I am very sorry for your loss. Some suggestions, and resources follow: Call: The Grief Recovery Institute (U.S.A.) 1-800-445-4808, or Hospice (phone book). Email [email protected] Chatrooms and forums: http://www.chatmag.com/topics/health/grief.html and http://talkingminds.15.forumer.com/ and http://messageboards.ivillage.com/ Other websites: www.griefnet.org/ and www.helpguide.org/ (coping, supporting others, loss of relationship, or pet) and www.mental-health-abc.com/ and www.boblivingstone.com/?q=node30 and www.crusebereavementcare.org.uk/ There is a grief support group at: http://dailystrength.org/ Also try Groups, at Myspace.com and Yahoo.com & Google.com At www.mind.org.uk/ type "grief" in the taskbar, and enter. Helping others grieve, and helping children grieve are some topics at: www.crisiscounseling.com/TraumaLoss/Grie… and for children: http://yourtotalhealth.ivillage.com/grief.html?pageNum=6 and www.childrensgrief.net/ and http://www.childgrief.org/ Understand that there are often several stages of grief. Those stages are: Denial: The initial stage: "It can't be happening." Anger: "Why ME? It's not fair?!" (either referring to God, oneself, or anybody perceived, rightly or wrongly, as "responsible") Bargaining: "Just let me live to see my son graduate." Depression: "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?" Acceptance: "It's going to be alright. Growth: Grief is a chance for personal growth. For many people, it may eventually lead to renewed energy to invest in new activities and new relationships. Some people seek meaning in their loss and get involved in causes or projects that help others. Some people find a new compassion in themselves as a result of the pain they have suffered. They may become more sensitive to others, thus enabling richer relationships. Others find new strength and independence they never knew they had. After the loss, they find new emotional resources that had not been apparent before. Kübler-Ross originally applied these stages to any form of catastrophic personal loss (job, income, freedom). This also includes the death of a loved one and divorce. Kübler-Ross also claimed these steps do not necessarily come in order, nor are they all experienced by all patients, though she stated a person will always experience at least two.See www.amazon.com/ for books on the various stages. After a while, consider making a photoalbum/scrapbook and/or a shrine, in remembrance, and set aside; say; one day every month, perhaps on a significant date, (for example; the 17th, or the second thursday) on which to reflect. Many religious organisations offer counselling, or you may feel more comfortable with a therapist, to express your thoughts, and feelings. Journalling may help in this. Celebrate that life; be thankful for the experience, and remember the good times. If there is depression: visit your doctor, and see depression treatments, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris in section 2. ; view page R first. Also see: EMOTIONAL CONTROL. EMOTIONAL THOUGHT STOPPING: PAGE L, in section 2, at ezy build, and page N, in section 6, on negative thoughts & images. If you practice, and become proficient in one of the relaxation techniques, it enables awareness, and a way of being, without emotional suffering, and helps you through the more difficult times in life. Suggested Resources on Grief and Mourning: Beyond Grief: A guide for recovering from the death of a loved one; and: Men and grief: A guide for men surviving the death of a loved one, New Harbinger Productions Inc. 5674 Shattock Ave, Oakland, CA 94609 Phone: 1-800-784-6273 ~~~ James, J. W. & Friedman, R. (1998). The Grief Recovery Handbook, Collins. ~~~ Grollman, E. (1995). Living when a Loved One has Died, Beacon Press. ~~~ Livingstone, B. (Planned August, 2007). The Body-Mind-Soul Solution: Healing Emotional Pain through Exercise, Pegasus Books. ~~~ Simon, S, & Drantell, J. J. (1998). A Music I No Longer Heard: The Early Death of a Parent. ~~~ Livingstone, B. (2002). Redemption of the Shattered: A Teenager's Healing Journey through Sandtray Therapy, boblivingstone.com ~~~

I am sorry for the loss of your brother. Life is a learning process and sometimes things don't work out the way we hope, but it does not mean you give up trying. You can do whatever you think you can do. If that means to you, doing nothing, then that is what you will do. But, if it means getting up and starting over to find something new, then you will do that. Definitely see a psychiatrist. You will be amazed how talking to someone will help you. A psychotherapist interacts with patients to initiate change in the patient's thoughts, feelings, and behavior through adaptation. A psychiatrist can be a psychotherapist, and usually is. Check it out on line using "psychotherapist" as the key search word. OK? take care...