Do i have OCD or something?

I think i have OCD/Anxiety or something?

• sorry this is long but... about every day i come home from school at 3:00 ish and i either sleep or go on my computer. i procrastinate big time! then around 6 or 7 i start freaking out thinking "omg i have so much to do" so i normally make a list, on that list it normally includes all my homework, getting my clothes ready for tomorrow, and cleaning. i swear i haven't gone a night without doing laundry in forever. my room could be spotless and i can't stand to think about or even look at clothes in my hamper. i hate it. i also share a room, that's a big part of this. so i'll spend maybe an hour or two cleaning my room and then my sister come up and gets a shower, she uses TWO towels each time and i can't stand it. it means more wash. her desk is an absolute mess and i can't even look at it. when she messes up the room i either break down crying or go completely physco on her. to the point where my whole family is involved and it ruins the rest of the week. i can't describe it to anyone, i feel like being mad and freaking out and hurting her, but i just can't i normally just start crying. it's pretty bad. THEN after that's over it's pretty late like 11 o'clock and ill still have homework or studying to do. im too tired or not motivated so ill put it off until the next day before classes. by the way right now im doing very bad at math and spanish. i have an F and a D :'( i've never done that bad in my life. i jut want to get the grade up. but i swear me cleaning and worrying about wash is stopping me. my mom and dad both work pretty much all day and when they get home, they dont want to do anything so it sucks. i feel like im the only one cleaning and i can't stand if i dont. i also have another sister (17) and a younger brother (11) they both don't do ANYTHING and i mean that. i can't stand to see them watch me clean or help around the house while their doing nothing. i also have little things that bother me: - when people blow their noses in school, it grosses me out so bad, i can't sit still and i feel like freaking out at the person doing it - when the clothes on hangers fall off one side, or both and are dangling or on the ground in my closet get so frustrated and mad - when anyone leaves their clothes on the bathroom floor it's not a good scene - when im in school and their's loose papers in my binder i have to put them in the right spot. -i always make lists for everything. (i have a minute by minute schedule for when i get ready in the morning, my homework, things i have to do, my username and passwords for just about everything, etc.) -on my computer i have to have all of my videos/pictures/files organized in different folders -i always have to have things symmetrical. or say if i crack my knuckles on one hand, i have to do it to the other. if i turn my eyes looking at something for too long, i have to turn them the other way after im done and "stretch them out" i guess; i don't know. now that i typed this i realized it always sounds like im pmsing or something. but im not, it's mostly everyday i get to the point where i could cry. oh and in English if i ever have a part in a book, i look for it a few pages before and i shake so much, i sweat, and i get the chills at the same time. it's bad. i don't know if this stuff is normal or not, maybe i have anger issues? i don't know.

• Answer:

  I have OCD, too. Just not that bad. I wouldn't suggest pills but they have some.... Take care my OCB (Obsessive Compulsive Buddy!^_^)