What does it feel like to have wanderlust?

Is it normal to feel like this? What can i do?

• I don't even know if this is a question. I just wrote down everything i feel right now. Sorry if it's weird. I just had to let it out. I feel like there is so much I can do in life but I won’t be able to do/can’t do. I feel there are so many choices I could make but the tiniest thing can make such a huge difference. I feel stuck in my art. I just want to do what I want and for it to be good and get the grades i need. I feel scared about • The future • School • My friends – do people actually like me? Will I never see them again after I leave school? • Myself I feel limited by my appearance. I feel that everything would be a million times better if I looked the way I wanted to and if I had the perfect body. I feel stupid and pathetic because I have the power to change my body and I still havn’t done it. WHY CANT I JUST DO IT? But then I’m worried that if I achieve it and I feel the same what will I do then? I feel like I want to burst out of something and just BE someone. Someone who isn’t me right now. I want someone to love me. I feel guilty that I feel like I do because I have money, a great family and am very privileged. I feel like a lazy s*** because I have the power to do some of these things. I just feel overwhelmed. I've just ended school for the summer and seeing friends and classmates leave in the year above felt really strange as well as some of my favourite teachers. It was really upsetting. The last week of school felt so surreal and I've only got a year left. Thanks for reading

• Answer:

  IT'S CALLED.......... L_I_F_E ! and I AM really sorry to break this to you~ from now on it is up to YOU how to deal with it !!!!!!