Where Is Creativity Goes To School?

Is this simply creativity, or is there something wrong with me? Is anybody else like me?

• My whole life, due to my overpowering sense of creativity I have felt extremely different to everyone else around me. When I was young I felt as though I perceived the world differently to everyone else, more abstractly and more deeply. However I had no idea just how different my thought process and perception of things in fact were. This may be hard to understand, but I am constantly thinking/feeling and inventing in a very abstract way. I invent outrageous situations in my mind and I imagine strange things happening, so intensely, that I believe, if I choose to, that I can see what I am imagining. For example, if I am sitting talking with someone their face will appear to melt and move, and their face will change into someone else's face, if there are pencils on the table they will become alive and begin to move around and dance together, if we are eating food the food will swirl around creating colors and patterns, and eventually a picture. After creating these in my head I begin to actually see this happening, and I can escape into this fantasy world, suddenly something goes CLICK(usually when I realize what I am doing and need to get back to reality) and everything is back to normal, and I begin to imagine something else happening. I create and imagine and see things like this happening every day of my life, almost every moment of the day. I suppose the easiest way to describe this as would be day dreaming? Which would make me a compulsive 24/7 day dreamer? I don’t know. I am also a deep thinker, and deep thinking is something which I feel stems from being creative. It is clear to me, and to the people who spend a lot of time with me, that I think far too deeply. This causes me to be an extremely over-sensitive and emotional person. I can sit in my room and think for hours, about others, the world, and most of all, myself. I can think all day about myself, trying to understand myself, figure out who I am, but because I am still young and I am “finding myself” or “discovering who I am” etc, this could be normal to analyze yourself in this way, but I’m not sure. Despite how crazy and mentally-unstable this has all probably made me sound, I am perceived as being a “Normal” young adult. Because I do not tell many people about this, I am understood by my friends and acquaintances as being extremely “normal.” In high school I was quite popular, I may have been described as funny, friendly, goofy, creative, expressive etc. I made average grades and would be seen by teachers/professors as a “good/ hardworking” student. I have always felt that my capability of achieving high grades has almost been, lowered?, because of the way I am, in other words I feel that everything I feel/experience at times distracts me from completing tasks. BTW: I have been diagnosed with dyslexia and ADHD, but not any diseases/mental disorders, nor do I take any medications/drugs- Something I forgot to mention. I don’t do drugs, and don’t intend on ever doing so. My close friend tried acid and said that she now understands what it’s like to be inside “my world” because the hallucinations she experienced on the drugs are like what I constantly create and imagine, and can even “see” if I wish. This made me very interested in researching the effects of psychedelics, where I found stories of hallucinations which are extremely similar to my “hallucinations” that I create. My friend also said the drug caused her to think deeply and intensely, about everything in the world, AND about herself. This sounds a lot like me being a deep-thinker, which confuses me even more because I guess I am like an acid addict who is constantly on acid but doesn’t know it? I don’t know. Because I am going through this stage in my life of finding myself and understanding who I am, I am getting frustrated with this as I do not understand it. My closest friends have accepted that I am "different" and think its great, but at the same time they know, and tell me it is not normal. My mom thinks I am "gifted?" which is a little dramatic but I guess is what any mother's instinct is to say/believe... but if I was given a gift... what is the purpose of this "gift" I just don't understand. I guess what I’m asking to all the intelligent people out there is, am I right by thinking that I suffer from a case of “over-creativeness?” What do you think of me and what do you think this is? Am I a “freak?” and most importantly, is there anybody else out there who is like this too?

• Answer:

  I do this too. Especially the imagining things and then they come true part... We are indigo children. Google it.