What is mean bye Florida vacation rentals?

To get married or not?

• i been wondering this since i moved. we got engaged in feb. of this year and he decided not us but him decided to get married in may of this year. he is in the military by the way and i was happy about it . the sooner we get married the sooner i can live with him. however he keeps saying i am selfish and i act childish. i dont think i do but who knows . only a third party can tell me if i am or not. i think he acts more like that then i do. i asked him several times i just want to speak to him once a day for atleast 10 minutes. i wonder if thats selfish of me but i keep thinking cant he stop talking to one of his friends that he gets to see everyday (unlike me since he based in italy and i am in florida) and just pick up the phone and call me. i would be happy with just 5 minutes of his time to see how he is doing. and i dont constantly call him i call him once if he answer or 3 times if he doesnt. i give up after that. i also want to know if he leave on a vacation because i only can contact him threw his home phone because he doesnt answer my messages and i dont write messages often maybe once every week to tell him i love him. he got mad at me and told me " why should i tell you" when he went to Switzerland and decided to call me a few minutes before he left and it wasnt to tell me he was going it was just to argue. he does this alot by the way. sometimes i would be so happy all day and call him to tell him i love him or he would call me and i would be so excited , only to here that grumpy voice and start an argument where we cant argue. for instant his ultimatum he gives me. one of them he call me and i am so happy and instead of saying hi how are or i love you or something like that he say " i am tired of you working there i am telling you this now you get a new job before may or we are not getting married" and then he says " i got to go i am going out with my friends bye" not even giving me a chance to talk. like the economy is so great that there is a 2 job waiting for every applicant. i wish. i done everything he asked and now i am thinking why bother. the more i follow him the worse my life is. i left my home to move in with his mom cause he said we would break up if i didnt and left my job and family. now i been here since the 5th and i have no job i had to ask my mother for financial help and i have to deal with him not wanting to talk to me and saying i am selfish and childish. yeah i get mad and start posting things online like he is a jack ***. but then again why should he care. he said that face book was not important thats why he doesnt list himself as engaged on his profile. so why should he care if i write he is a jack *** on his page. now he doesnt even have me on facebook which makes me upset since that was the only way to find out about how he is doing. he doesnt like talking to me. he barely calls and when he does its like a minute long. he gives me short answer like ME: hey how was your day ? HIM : good ME: what ya do HIM: hmm yeah that it and then he like hey babe i got to let you go i will talk to you later. i just dont know anymore all of our arguement is because he doesnt like to communicate with me and since he so far away i need to speak to him. and it makes me mad that he would go to a club or a strip club instead of talking to me. i mean cant he miss one night with the guys and talk to me? am i being to selfish? right now i am at the point of wondering what would be best for the both of us. should i just leave him . its not like he cares anyway. he rather hang out with his guys then talk to me and if i leave him he doesnt have to worry about me. and i can try to fix up my life. i can go back to school. i quite due to the fact that it was getting to much . he said he would leave me if i didnt come see him more and so i quite so i had more time to see him and go to work so i had money to afford to see him. i even wasted my tax refund to go see him in italy for a month only for him to go to work and come back and sleep and then hang out with his friends. it was fun but at the same time i could have gone back to school or got an apartment or something. instead he acted as if i was nothing to him until he proposed ( we had broken up somewhat before went up there) and i would spend most of the month stuck in his room. its just this feeling i have that makes me want to walk out of this house and go back to my family and leaving only a letter. i just wish he would call me more and answer with a pleasant voice and not a "what do you want" he wasnt like that when he lived in the states.

• Answer:

  How old are you? Have you considered using paragraphs? This is a huge wall of text and it's hard to read... It sounds like you are engaged but not even dating as he is in the military. If that's the case, and all you do is argue. Leave. It's not like you are married with a house and kids...you are single. You can choose to leave at any time!