How do I know if I'm having a mental breakdown?

Breakdown....What should i do, please advise?!!!?

• Im some what of a celebrity, and had all the attention and crowd around me. Being in the entertainment biz is draining...i felt posessed and controled by many many people, and hunted by many women at once. Well i mentally shut down and lost it under all the pressure. I dont even know who i am anymore, kinda suffering a breakdown...i never wanted to be poplular but i was, i just needed a break from it all. It's like im being avoided by everyone. I've been keeping to myself, staying alone--partially because i need that right now....but im wondering should i reach out to soem people from my past even though they have not called me? Or should i just move on about my own business and do me? I kinda feel that people, expectations and pressure, among other things caused my breakdowns in a way, so i have no problem not contacting anybody and just do me for a while. Do they feel since im not in the limelight anymore i have nothing to offer them anymore. (Alot of feelings were involved, multiple people wanting me/and or something from me all at once...even just attention, maybe they did'nt get it in the way the wanted...im not a conformist, so people may be hurt.) If they are not worried about me, im not worried with them.....But if people care about me, then i feel its selfish to be that way...im really tired of caring though...im i wrong? please advise!! Ps: It's the music biz for those that need to know, and if u think you wanna b famous....NO U DON'T...it;s cut throat!!!!

• Answer:

  Hi, I really think you should reach out to some of the people if it will help you. Maybe they have not called you because they might think that since you being famous and all, that you don't need that certain person in your life. If they really cared about you they would want to be around you, even if you are not in the limelight anymore. Maybe taking a break would be good for you but gradually, after you take a rest from this all, start to get in touch with the people you care about more so you can partially get back to your old life, before you were famous. I think people do care about you and worry about you but maybe they just don't know how to show it. Just another thought might be, that since you are somewhat of a celebrity that they could be intimidated by you or something. You are not wrong that you are getting tired of caring, because I know how tiring it feels when that happens and you feel no one cares back. So I think you should try and find your old self again by doing other activities you like, other than in the music biz or with the music biz...(like for me, when I used to live by the lake, fishing felt so relaxing even if you are just sitting there waiting for fish), and try and involve more people gradually in your life. Soon, you'll find out that people do care even if you are not in the limelight and have nothing to offer, people will just want to be around you and not the celebrity you've become. Good luck and best wishes!!! Don't be too stressful and hard on yourself! (;