How can i be more motivated?

How can I become motivated and passionate about something?

• I am 20 years old, and I have been depressed and anxious for a long time. I also believe that I might have Avoidant Personality Disorder. I don't want to take drugs, and I don't feel like there is any point to artificially making myself feel happy if my life still isn't going to amount to anything. I am in college now, and as a junior, I still don't know what I want to do in terms of a career. One week I'll be set on something, and the next week it'll be something else. I've just decided to major in Psychology and to try to get into a PhD program, as I want to do something to help other people in a field that I know a lot about. My problem is that I have a lot of social anxiety and am unable to pass any job interviews. Sometimes I feel like this problem will never go away, and I decide that I want to just quit college and get a full time job doing something boring like dishwashing, and use video games as my escape for the rest of my life. I can't imagine myself ever having a career or being in a position where I can be comfortable with myself. And when I look back on times in my life, I realize that I could have done a lot of things to improve my situation and outlook on life. For example, I've been writing a novel for years now. I have told several people the idea of the novel, and they have been asking about it since then because they find it interesting. You'd think this would be a good source of motivation, right? Well, I've written a total of three paragraphs, because I find myself unable to become passionate about the story or anything at all. Without passion, I have no motivation. Instead of going out and meeting people, exercising, and doing all the things that normal people like to do, I sit around in my dorm and worry. Instead of writing that novel, I spend my free time playing an online game where I literally just click on a monkey over and over again for hours on end to steal all of its money. I was wondering if anyone had any advice on becoming passionate and motivated about something. I'd appreciate it if you don't answer if you're just going to tell me: -To go to a doctor or any type of counselor -To call the suicide hotline (I am not suicidal) -That I am any sort of evil or inconsiderate person for asking this question Thanks in advance :)

• Answer:

  Hahaha. I knew one person who thougth of writing a novel and it gave her enemies more material to peer into her mind and torture her in the future.