Will god forgive my suicide, I've destroyed my eyes through taking roaccutane and now I'm completely disabled?

Sorry to hear that. I hope things get better for you soon

Don't give up, have faith in God and he will heal if you truly believe.

Please don't ever try to kill yourself!! Imagine how your loved ones would feel. The anguish would never end for them. It would take a PERMANENT TOLL on them. You don't have to kill yourself! You can have “a life” in JESUS (John 10:9-10) In Jesus, life can be far better and peaceful, but the first step is to never give up on yourself! PLEASE, pray to Him (Jesus.) Pour out your heartaches to Him. Trust me, Jesus Christ will HEAR your prayer, and can (with time,) heal ALL of your wounds. Put your trust in Him, that He CARES about you, and will listen to your concerns. He LOVES you so much and even knew you when you were in your mother's womb! "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you...." - Jeremiah 1:5. No matter who you are, God LOVES you and wants to give you a FUTURE and everlasting life. “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” That being said, suicide is a SIN. A sin that will send you to Hell (a place of eternal punishment and a place that there's no escape from.) All those who reject Jesus Christ and die in their sins (and suicide,) will be cast into the 'Lake of Fire' (Hell) forever. Hell is definitively a REAL place, and once you go there, there's no getting out! You can go on Youtube and watch many people's testimonies about dying and going to Hell. You can start watching here; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MN8dRnPth%E2%80%A6 Though one may not understand the severity of God sentencing a person to burn in Hell for all eternity, as punishment for sin, we must realize that God is far more holy and just than we could ever imagine. Your life, and body belongs to GOD, who created you. No one should ever even seriously consider something so foolish as killing one's self. I hope these few words have encouraged you. I'll pray for you. PS; God promises us that one day in the future; "He (Jesus) will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." - Revelation 21:4. He also tells us; "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10. When you have a relationship with Jesus, things ALWAYS get better with time. He loves you and wants you to have a future. A wonderful future which includes EVERLASTING life. :-) I would also get a Bible from somewhere and start reading it from the New Testament (the book of Matthew.) Or start reading the New Testament, online; http://bible.oremus.org/?passage=Matthew+1

Dear Nick I am really sorry for what has happened to you. But I hope that you would reconsider your decision of taking your own life. I was once in an almost similar situation. I was a victim of a medical operation gone wrong. I went to countless doctor but no one could give me the right treatment. I lost my job and I even could not get up from my bed without feeling enormous pain. There were times when I feel so desperate that I asked God what I had done so that I was deserved to be like this. I was once consider of commiting suicide because I felt so hopeless. I thought that I have lost everything and that there's no meaning of me to continue living. But then I decided to continue living. I didn't know where I got the power but I remember saying to my self, if I can get through this hard time, I would be able to overcome any obstacles in life in the future, It took two years for me to finally recovered, I didn't really understand the process though. I'm so glad that I chose not to give up and continue breathing. And even that I still hated that feeling of pain and desperation everytime I recall that phase of my life but I understand that God put me there so that i can learn a lesson. All my life I have been thinking of having branded stuffs and jewellery and all the expensive things, but now I realize how meaningless they are. And that just wake up in the morning with a happy feeling is trully a blessing. It did teach me probably the best lesson. Wish you the best, dear