What does it feel like to have wanderlust?

What to do when you feel like you never can please ur mom?

• love my mom and dad, but sometimes they drive me crazy this is one of my hardest yeic to ar, becasue of depression i was not able to do well and attend school as much the past year. my depression got treated, and was so enthuastic to go back to school and do great i cant wait to finish my studying and help my parents and make some of their worries less, and offcourse having a good education will help myself to follow my dream and spend more time with loved ones. currently not employed, applied but no one hires. so don't hang out as much as before with friends. this year my studyings are harder, so when i come home i go to my room till early morning studying. when my parents come home i tell them hello and thats it i m not that kind of person to be uncommunative or ignorant. however my studyings are too hard this year, and i m behind in school my mom is talking behind me to everyone, that i wish never had child, all she does is studying and dont realy see her. is not like i like to be this way but too much studying , except for now that im writting this on yahoo answers, taking 15minutes break sometimes i feel like , im never good enough for her, it was a mistake to be born. at the same time im so enthusiatic to help people and finish education. i feel like my mom would be happier if she had another child or not child at all. she want to have complete control over my life, sometimes when i go to school i just put my hair up and do nothing special with it, but other times i feel the need to style my hair and go to school. when i style my hair she asks me if i m doing it for a boy, or if i have a "hidden boyfriend". I never had boyfriend because i always wanted to concentrate on my studyings, and like being independent. sometimes when i go out with just a guy friend , she gets angry at me and asks if im in relationship. Hence, when i m going out to study with guy friend have to make sure to becareful on how to let her know. No matter what i do to please her never good for her. i think it was better if i could find a job and live in dorm and visit family during break times or weekends. sometimes for example, i try to change for good on some of my flaws. when i change it , she always reminds me of my past flaws, and says what happened u changed. why cant she not say anythiing and just accept that people change and learn from their flaws and try to be good. nothing about me is positive to her, she always compares me to other people. sometimes feel like she wants to tell me what to wear, complete control of my life. i like asking for her opinion about what to wear, but sometimes i feel like i need to express my own style too. not just the clothes she wants me to wear. why is she so unlucky to have me, im sorry i talked to much, but felt like i had to let this out . it is easier here since no one knows who you are, and gives honest advise. im the kind of girl , when my parents are not happy with me cant concentrate on life . no matter how great things happen outside of my house , deep im not happy.im only child seeing her being unhappy, makes me unhappy and feel like nothing. i feel like nothing, no value, why im born

• Answer:

  quit living for your mother and start living for yourself