What is this mischievous problem?

What is this problem? Help me please!?

• I'm 16 and I've been having this problem for the past 3 years. For a while I had alot of family problems, relationship problems, problems with friends. My parents were going through a divorce, the house was always stressful, always shouting, I had fights with my parents almost everyday, I used to scream so loudly when I got in a fight with them sometimes, and I would just keep on smacking stuff around and banging doors etc.. I even HIT my own parents a couple of times before and I would just not care! basically I was doing really crazy stuff, like I was actually mental, and I would cry so hard while doing that! (This happens for a period of time, then after a while I would usually get back to normal, and calm down, but after a while, and the next day at school I would act like I was completely normal and I would be hyper with friends and happy and everything…. But for a while, I couldn’t hide it and my friends kinda thought something was wrong with me) Sometimes I get emotionally hurt quickly. While having this problem almost EVERY SINGLE DAY, it was soooo hard, I started writing in a diary for a while, thought maybe it would make things better but it didn’t. I used to write EVERY SINGLE DETAIL, everyday, about EVERYTHING that I did, and how I screamed, and how I smashed stuff etc.. My parents eventually decided to send me away to a boarding school for a year to kinda chill and get away from the environment I was in, but I was kinda depressed there.. In the beginning of the year I was extremely anti-social, had a fight with a couple of people, I just HATED it, I even called my mom and started crying and screaming on the phone etc… People at school thought I was mental.. but after a while I kinda faced the fact that I was gonna spend a whole year there, so I started making a couple of friends and so on… I didn’t exactly like it there, most of the time I was faking that I was happy, sometimes I used to just start crying at night.. fo no reason, or no reason that I completely understand, maybe cuz I miss home? Or because parents were going through a tough time? Or because my mom worked in Juba, Sudan alone, to support the family. I’m not exactly sure why I used to cry, but I basically didn’t enjoy it there. For the past 3 years I've been having this thing too, When I'm REALLY sad about something, I do stuff that I don't feel, like, I don't know how to think at that time, I don't stuff that i DON'T wanna do, its like at that time, I DON’T CARE WHAT THE CONSIQUENCES will be, and then regret it right after. like, I've cheated on my boyfriend a couple of times UNWILLINGLY I SWEAR. I don't even realize what I'm doing sometimes, or not able to think cuz I'm just TOO sad or too stressed etc.... and that caused me alot of problems obviously, Another thing, sometimes when I’m really sad about something and cry too much, I don’t know HOW I do it, but my whole body gets stressed out, and I start moving my legs around like I’m kicking or something, and it just hurts, and its really bad, I don’t know how to control it.. sometimes I just feel that I need someone by my side, but I’ve got my boyfriend, but he’s really mad at me at the moment and we’re going through a tough time, I’ve been with him for 4 years now by the way, so its kinda serious, he understands something is wrong with me, but he doesn’t understand WHAT is, I don’t either, and he still can’t get over that I cheated, but I don’t know why I even did that, Its like when I did it, I wasn’t even thinking, it’s a weird feeling, that is really hard to explain, (by the way, the cheating was just going out with a guy, nothing big) I still kinda have this problem till now, the screaming, but its A LOT better now, cuz I don’t live with my parents anymore, I live with my grandma and sister, my dad visits us everyday, I love him, he’s a great person, my mom works abroad to support the family so yeah… I don’t do the smacking things smashing etc that much anymore.. I’ve also been having a digestive problem for as long as I can remember, and its really bad, the doctor told me it’s because of too much stress and sadness etc… I have no idea what is wrong with me, but I’m pretty sure that’s not normal, I’m 100% sure not all teenagers act like that, I’ve heard that age is an age of tough times, etc… but is that normal?? Is all I’m saying normal?? Please help me! Tell me what you think this problem is please, and what I should do… :) Thank you in advance.

• Answer:

  You seem like a normal teenager just with a lot of emotional problems and its taking quite the toll on you. Any normal teenager would do the same if they were going what you are going through. Maybe when you do these things and don't feel anything when you do them, its because you are so hurt you just want to hurt someone else, but if your regret it after your normal. But you shouldn't be going through this much emotional stress in your teenage years its not to healthy. What you need to do Is get some good friends, think positive, plan out your life, plan what you want to do get excited about it, and also get better with your parents just tell them your sorry for acting out and that there actions and the enviroment you were in was putting a lot of stress on you. - Life may suck right now, but you can do anything when your older if you know what your doing. good luck.