What is going to happen to me?

What is probably going to happen? I am so confused. - They found a letter at school....?

• Okay - so I don't really have people to talk to. So I tend to write down my feelings on paper to get some of it out and then I rip the paper up and throw it out so no one can read it. I was having a really tough day at school yesterday, so I had to really vent & write everything out. I didn't throw the paper out this time because my teacher was standing right next to the trash can. I walked down the hall and I guess I dropped it & my luck it was right in front of the vice principles office and it slipped under the door! So it said some bad stuff.. like that I was getting tired of waking up everyday to deal with the issues in my life. & that I tried over -dosing my self a year or so again and that I was trying not to come to that point in my life again & do it again. Just really personal stuff. It said how I was destroying my body by the over -dosing & not eating, etc. I really did NOT want anyone to read that at my school. I guess they were looking around all that day for who wrote it. They matched a few peoples hand writing (including mine to it). I guess they thought I was the most probable to do it. Guidance called my mom and asked if anything had been going on in my life and my mom mentioned a few things. Then about a hour or so later, my principal called from his HOME phone and left my mom a voicemail saying he needed to talk to her right away about some bad news that had to do with me. He told my mom they found a note and that it looked like my hand - writing. I am very good at putting on a happy face and acting like everything is okay. So I managed to convince her it was not me and they had the wrong person. She called my principal back and told him they must have the wrong person. He said that he still wanted to talk to me tomorrow (which was now today) as well as having my guidance counselor talk to me. & that if it was me , they were bringing a counselor in to have me talk to. & that they did have one other girl in mind they would talk to too. But they did NOT call me down today at all. I was sitting there all day with my nerves getting so bad. I obviously did not let it show but my stomach was flipping around all day. How ever - I ended up needing to go down to guidance to get a paper signed. Which I was trying to avoid. The guidance counselor asked as if nothing happened at first. Like she nor the principal never called my home. She just went on talking about what I need to do to finish getting the paper signed. Then she said, " So, I know you got a phone call to your house last night. " I just nodded my head and didnt say anything (by the way that phone call ended up with my mom flipping out on me and yelling at me for running the risk of getting dss called on us. & that I need to get my **** together and finish this school year. ) Then she said I would have called you down today, but I wanted to let you be today". And that "I was planning on calling you down tomorrow to talk to you." Then she said " But now that you here...." And Thank god, another school worker knocked on her door and said they needed her to do something - so I got to leave with out finishing the conversation. It was at the end of the day too, so I left and went home. Do you think she'll call me back down tomorrow? Do you think my principal is still going to talk to me? He didnt today like he said he was. Is there a chance he will still call me down tomorrow? The vice - principal was out today. Do you think he'll call me down tomorrow? He wanted to talk to me too & he is the one that found the letter. They started asking & looking for another person who may have wrote the note, do you think I am safe now? Or do you think they may still think it was me? Will the continue to pursue this? They didn't really do anything today at all as opposed to what they said they were going to do. I am 17, - so I it is not like I am a young child where this would be more of a concern. Just it really made me nervous how they called & everything they said. But it makes me confused that they did not at least talk to me at all today like they said they were going to.

• Answer:

  It would be less of a concern if it were a young child. A young child wouldn't normally have the knowledge of how to overdose, or ability to get the supplies. Your letter was a cry for help. You say you were just venting, but the things you wrote are concerning to the school. Or to me as a parent of a teenager with mental health issues. Admit you wrote it, ask your parents for help, see a doctor and a therapist. You don't have to live with those feelings. (Maybe you were supposed to drop it.)