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I dont know my sexuality anymore! : ( Whats wrong with me? Its long story which I wrote but i need help?

• All my life when I look back at it Ive always had an attraction for guys, ALWAYS. Also when I was little I had like 2 crushes on girls and 1 celebrity girl crush (Meagan Good). My guys crushes Im no going to list them because it would take all night. As years went by when I was a pre teen and teenager those crushes that I with the girls had went out the ****** window and my attraction to guys were more intense physically and emotionally. Mind you IVE ALWAYS been attracted to men. During high school I had crushes on guys NOT girls I was friends with the girls but nothing more. I would always look at the guys never the girls if I looked at them I thought I was committing a sin! lol sort of speak. When I came out of the closet to my parents they didnt accept me they didnt like it either, but they said they knew. My sister said that she would accept and said that she kind of knew, I mean I was playing with her barbies when she would leave. My friends (Aquaintances) who were girls in my senior year knew that I was gay too. Also I dont have a high voice but not a low one either and I did and do have fem characteristics and mannerisms AGAIN Im still attracted to guys, so I WASNT a fem boy who is heterosexual. I do admit that Ive watched porn like everyone else, but I watch gay porn and I really like it I know I might be a little explicit at this part but again I really love watching gay porn. I do watch straight porn but I always look at the guy, the only thing I find it a little bit interesting is when a girl squirts and thats because I didnt know that girls ejaculate but thats it. Breast and their vaginas dont arouse me. The pussy just look nasty to me on how it just sags i guess! lol If I had to make out hardcore with one of my friends in high school who are GIRLS, I would do it only if I was getting paid, or if she was confused with her sexuality I would but only for her I dont think I would have feelings or aroused by it. I do find girls pretty, Halle Berry, Sandra Bullock, Zoe Saldana, Meagan Good or Ashley Tisdale, Selena Gomez, theyre pretty but I dont wouldnt want to have sex with them. I would have sex with Zac Efron, Taylor Lautner, Ian Lynch Jake Mossop, my crushes from high school, Will Smith, Matt Domon, Luke Mitchell, Josh Duhmal, Chris Brown etc you get the point. I have a gay rainbow flag, I have a sex toy (its a shape as a bananas) lol I watch LOGO I have dvds of Queer As Folk and Noahs Arc Heres the thing Ive never had a boyfriend never had a girl friend, never had sex and never been kissed, the thing is, I dont have that feeling when you know that you're gay like everybody else whos gay. I dont know what it is, it maybe because of my past with my parents they are really religious and strict (Jehovahs Witness) so I couldnt date so I couldnt really explore myself, when I came out to them in high school I was sure of myself. But after I graduated high school 2 years ago ever since then I had to follow the rules in the house, since I was generally attracted to men and Im still am to this day, I feel like Im loosing my sense of my sexuality by not being with people like me and by me not being by gay people, its like I dont know my sexual identity and its like im in a confuse state in where I dont know what I am, and I dont like it and, its really scaring me. I am taking an antidepressant for my depression and ADD and I do have social anxiety, but I DONT know if its the medicine either because I just started taking it 2 weeks ago, and i was feeling "unsure of myself" before i started treatment So I dont know if Im confused, I dont know if Im truly deep down gay and havent really truly accepted it within myself yet and not to comprehend that I am gay, I dont know. If Im gay I DONT have a problem with it whatsoever, I just wouldnt know how to accept it in my mind subconsciously, I dont know what it is but what I do know is that I do a lot of gay things besides being attracted to men I watch gay movies, I watch gay youtubers, I watching voguing videos and im interested in voguing which is like the gayest thing you can do Im interested in that and I do practice it and no straight guy would do that so I dont understand why I dont feel gay and feel like im in a confused and lost state It maybe the environment Im in and that I need to be around gay people idk, I cant really move out home right now because the college im going to doesnt have any dorms and I dont have really enough money to sustain myself to be out on my own. Plus I want to save my money and move to LA, but I only have a few thousands of dollars and that wouldnt last me there that long so I need to save up. But yeah Im crazy arent I? : ( But this is very frustrating me not knowing who I am And dont say love is love it doesnt matter who you love, because that confuses me even more believe it or not

• Answer:

  I have a test for you. When a pretty girl walks by, especially if she's wearing clothes that leave a lot of skin uncovered, like a short skirt or low cut blouse, do you look? Do you in fact turn your head and look after she's walked by? If so, you are attracted to girls sexually. Now same test for guys. If a handsome guy walks by, do you turn and look? If not, you aren't gay. If you do, well, I guess you are bi-sexual if you also checked out the girls too.