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How to get rid of regrets and start a happy life. I believe we get life once but some bad step ruins your life?

• I am 40 years old male, from Pakistan, married with 3 kids and a lovely wife. All my life I have dreamed of going abroad and getting settled there, for the reason that there I will have a system of social justice, clean road and atmosphere, access to basic faculties of life and above all an environment of security and peace. Luckily I got the chance to move to an advance country, but I had to study first and fulfill all the requirements before getting Permanent residence. During the period I reached there, the world was facing “ economic recession” however I managed to get an odd job. But people there were hopeless and there were tough changes in immigration rules. Having an excuse like “ recession and tough immigration” laws I managed to escape from there and came back, breaching the visa rules of that country i.e Not studying full time and changing the course. In my country I am having a nominal job, which just feed me and my family three times a day, however I can’t imagine of a house/car/ good education for my kids. I do not have enough money to start a business and excel. Now, I am going through severe shocks of “ Regrets” as all my collegues who survived in that country are enjoying very good life and earning good and are moving towards the destination, which was once my dream. Here in my country the situation is going from worst to the extrme worst. I feel very much depressed and I consider extremely low and I held totally responsible my self for my cowardness, inconsistent nature, and other weaknesses. This thing really hurts me and some time I even thinking seriously of ENDING my life. Because I believe God has given me the opportunity to fulfill my dream but my “ inconsistency, cowardness and lack of vision” has brought me to this situation. I feel no interest in any thing, I feel my life is now a like stand still no dream no success and just a life of total failure just because of me. I have involved my self in bad things, sitting all the day to computer and wasting time in nude movies, dating sites and **** kind of things. Please some one help me seriously and answer me guide through their wise advice, suggestions. I held my self responsible for my failure and now I wish to end this life, as I can’t get rid of “ regret thoughts” I think, Had I taken that step I would have achieved this and that. But when I come to reality and stop dreaming the reality is horrible. The most killing thought is " we all have to live once so if we do not get what we dream is really a shame and almost a useless life to live, i feel extremly jelous when i hear from those friends who remained consistent and today are enjoying a life which i dreamed of" What to do , how to get rid of these thoughts. Is there some one who forward to me his/her email and I get some attachment and share my feelings and get a positive response to live a life of joys and peace.

• Answer:

  your regrets are your regrets honey you can't go back to the past i wish i could but it's impossible but if your nice to people you will live a happier life just be proud of your friends and family and gorgeous wife and kids your kids love you and you know that they don't want you doing this figure something out and it depends on what life you wanna live hang out with your friends more often if there living the life you are then you can buzz in too.