Long term memory loss, not sure what to do and need help

btw, if this just started since you turned your heating on for the winter you should get a carbon monoxide monitor and check your house. Especially if you sleep downstairs. It's a big problem around here and depression, memory loss and confusion like you describe are the symptoms they say to watch for (along with headaches). I mention this in particular because you say your symptoms are worse at night. If you feel really terrible or can't get a monitor today, call the gas company and they'll come check your furnace for you.

you need to go to your doctor and your therapist immediately and tell them what's going on. that's it. go to your doctor and your therapist tomorrow, and tell them everything. abusing prescription drugs and stealing alcohol - so what? these are nothing compared to the importance of getting qualified help, immediately. call their offices now. don't wait any longer.

Your memory loss sounds frightening and if it were me I would certainly go to a regular medical doctor asap in case I had an undiagnosed disease or injury. There are many reasons this could be happening to you. This thread is heavily weighted towards seeking psychiatric help or going to a therapist which is, imho, a whole separate thing from the serious physical symptoms you're experiencing at the moment. You deserve to have that treated so go! Your doctor will tell you what they thing is causing it and send you for tests or to specialists, maybe they will want you to see a psychiatrist but you can deal with that when it happens. In the meantime deal with the problem at hand. If it helps I would guess that 50% of young people have tried illegal drugs once or twice and 95% have stolen alcohol from their parents and consumed it in their bedroom on the sly. And while I'm not a doctor I doubt that occasional drinking or a few instances of drug use could cause this or most people would be having memory issues so please don't blame yourself for your symptoms. You haven't done anything 5 billion other people haven't done, ok?

The fact is that no one here can diagnose you. It is not possible. The only way you will get diagnosed is to go to your doctor. Don't argue with people here about their tone; you've asked us for advice, and I can promise that this will be one of the unanimous threads where everyone goes "Doctor!"

Based both on this question and on your entire posting history it's completely clear that you need to seek medical treatment as soon as you can. Please stop using the internet as a substitute for a trained mental health professional. No one here can give you the help that you obviously need.

dude, even if you *aren't* being honest about your drug and alcohol intake, it makes no difference. even if you're boosting shit out of the best buy every day, it makes no difference. medical professionals can get in *massive* trouble for divulging their patients' secrets. you need to take action immediately.

If you're being honest here about your level of alcohol and drug intake, that should not be a factor at all. You need to go to the doctor.

Go to the doctor. If you have to explain to your family why you are going to the doctor because of health insurance or whatever, you can tell them what is happening without sharing the drugs and alcohol part. While ideally you would share all applicable information with your doctor, if disclosing your drug use is what is keeping you from going, I would say go anyway and leave that information out. It isn't what you *should* do, but I don't think substance use to the degree you describe is really correlated with memory loss.

I feel like my brain is melting away like melted cheese and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Well, you can start doing something to stop it by making an appointment with your doctor. There could be a medical reason for your memory loss that the hivemind isn't equipped to diagnose.