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Please I need help, :'( whats wrong with me?

• please help me I'm desperate, tell me whats wrong! Ok, so i don't know whats going on really, I'm feeling a lot of unexplainable emotions. first off I'm a troubled sleeper, when I'm in my own bed at home I'm fine nothing happens. but if I'm sleeping in a strange place that I'm not comfortable with or something thats not normal for me "things" happen. i say things because it could be a range of stuff. its also very rare for anything to happen and my own parents have only experience it just a few times since birth. (I'm 18 btw) these "things" could rage anywhere from just talking in my sleep to doing full on activities such as getting up and going to go get the mail at 3am. and then waking up in either the morning or right in the middle of doing something having no idea how i got there or what the hell i am doing. but when that happened i just have a very vague feeling of me doing something but everything is like a blur. like when you have a dream and you remember it right when you wake up but u can just feel the memory slipping away and then soon you can't remember it at all and its just a blur. heres something i must also tell you, i have had very weird dreams, like they could be utterly plain where i dream about doing normal average day to day activities. and when i do have these rare "sleep walking episodes" i tend to act out what i was dreaming. like my earlier example of going out to get the mail. but i have also had dreams of murder and rape and suicide and i wake up quickly sweating bullets and breathing heavy. now to what i did the other night that truly scares me. i was staying at my dads house which i almost never do, and my little brother was there and my little cousin who's a girl around age 12. my cousin has always taken a shine to me and we have always been close, so that night we were watching Futurama on Netflix and we fell asleep, and the next thing i know i wake up by my dad opening the door in the middle of the night and I'm in the other room standing up with my cousin on the futon. and i woke up scared sh*tless, like it wasn't a jump it felt like iv just been shot or as if i just fell off a skyscraper. the worst part is that my pants were undone. thats all i remember, i went to sleep right after in a cold sweat. scared out of my wits. when i woke up the next morning i knew something was wrong, i remembered being scared the night before and going to bed but thats all. i seems to have this "feeling" that i did something wrong, but its very hard to explain, its like it was a dream and the memory is gone but those odd feeling are way in the back of my head. my cousins parents came and took her away, apparently she told them some stuff and my dad and my grandmother are worried. apparently i tried to touch her and get her to "do stuff". now I'm going to stop right there and say that right when she told me that i felt like crying and throwing up at the same time, and i felt disgusted at myself and suicidal thoughts flashed through my head. i had no idea how to really react. all i knew was this was bad and I need help. because like i said stuff similar to this has happened before just not as extreme. if it means anything i want to say that i have sexual dreams every once and a while just like every other young guy but iv never had a wet dream growing up, not once. I'm really pouring myself out here I'm exposing myself so you can tell how scared and desperate i am. I'm hoping to go to the doctors soon and maybe go to a sleep center clinic, but iv always valued what just random people might think. and i want tome advice and if anyone els might know whats wrong please tell me. i could really use some help right now. i also want to add that I'm not a perv or a pedo and I'm not into sick stuff. I'm try respectable i make good grades and I'm going to college i have good friends, this isn't me at all :'( so I'm scared and please please any comforting words or advice will help greatly. thank you

• Answer:

  I think that at a situation like this you should probably not value what random people think, you are a good person i can see that because if you weren't you wouldn't be here asking for help, you should go see doctors for some help you are going to get over this, and you will sleep comfortably at any place you want :) Trust me all you have to do is be strong for a bit.