What's the cultural space per head (per capita) in Paris and London?

Was this my fault - so unhappy and shock of my life. feel like hit by train, pls help what did I do wrong?

• I was with my guy nearly 10 yrs and we were engaged to get married. He was the love of my life, but I lost my job and was really miserable I told him he could do better. I found out he asked another girl out. When I found out, he said my fault for saying he could do better. I overheard him on the phone asking her out again after he said they were just pals. We stayed together, he never let me stay over in 10yrs except weekends, and when I finally asked him where we were going he always said yes we will get married soon and get a house. His pal started dyng of cancer & he cut himself off from me. He never wanted to see me cos he said he was stressed, yet he would play guitar on stage with his band etc and still go out on nights out. He seemed to be having a break down, and when I asked whats happeining he would bang his head against the wall.I told him to go abraod for a month on hols o be with his dying pal cos I was worried about him but then I discovered he was sleeping with his student behind my back after telling me 'he didnt think i was the right girl& I should just move on' When I found her in his house, he told me he only got engaged to use me till somebody better came along and loved me like a sister. I discovered he'd slept with her the day our house we bought for us went through so now Im stuck with it. He got sacked for having sex with a student who by the way was 20 yrs younger than him. He took a job abroad after dumping the girl. We got back in touch & he said he wanted to try and make it up which we did. We talked loads, said he love me and we would be fine etc. All was good then I found a photo of him & another woman on facebook and felt sick but worse part is, they are now engaged cos I have found out she is pregnant and they have moved in together. They are also getting married in the next year so he spent 10yrs with me telling me we would move in together get married and in the space of 1 year he has met, engaged and got her pregnant whilst telling me he loved me. I feel really sick, cos the way he was treating me was terrible and the things he said to me caused me to have a miscarriage. I didnt even know I was pregnant. I didnt tell him cos he kept saying he was stressed so I only told him after he seemed better but he didnt seem to care. His entire family have now told his woman they cant wait for the baby to be born etc, for the wedding etc and how he is with somebod more his class. He has told them so many lies about me& told everybody when his pal was dying I was selsfish & everytghing was about me but thats not true. I ex[planed how many girls tell their guys to go cancel our summer holls and go abroad for a month with their friend to have a break. His sister is the only one that has realy hugged me when I found him cheating & she said he is an idiot. His mother just shrugged when I told her he cheated with his tudent who is 20yrs younger and got sacked. she didnt really care and just said 'oh well, boys will be boys' He is 42 yrs old, he's not a boy. I feel so sick and just been walking round in a daze, my mind feels like exploding coson ly just found out about her pregnancy and they are living apart, hes in London, she's in greece cos she works there but hes moved into her house in london. I feel so sick and punched in the stomach.

• Answer:

  keep your head up. believe it or not there are people out there who are better for you