I love my friend or not.

I'm straight, but I'm in love with my best friend.?

• Okay. This pretty much describes the topic. I am a guy, I'm young, and I'm straight. But there's my best friend. That's stealing my heart. When we met, I never thought of him in a sexual way. After we grew older, he became such a star in my life. I talked to him 24/7 and we were so happy together. I was very happy when I was around him, and I can tell he was too. We were always outside playing around, and I would joke around and tell him I love him, and that we were dating and I called him my boyfriend. He never cared. I even asked him if it was uncomfortable and he said he didn't care about it. When I lived in his neighborhood, I was happy. Without any cares, and never thinking if I loved him. Then I moved away. Not too far, but not in walking distance. I missed him so much. The first night I stayed in my Newhouse I had a dream about him, and after that, I couldn't stop thinking about him. This is where I started loving him. He was slowly stealing my heart. I kept thinking about him, and over the fastest 6months of my whole life, on the 7th one, I decided to tell him about my whole dilemma. But before this all happened. I went to Los Angeles, CA. It was with my family, but I couldn't bond with them. Through the whole time, I thought about him. I thought about what it would be like if he was there with me, and everything in the box. Now note that I don't love him in a sexual way, it's that I Corley am in love with him, and I want to spend my life with him. I don't know if I'm knocking on a wall that has nothing on the other side, or do I keep knocking until I see the true colors. Of course through the whole time frame I texted him, and talked to him via Facebook. But I felt like the friendship was dying. And then, after the time, I told him that I was not happy without him, I told him just a little part of it then. He took it lightly, and told me that now that he knows, we can discuss it more. I felt super happy that he was so accepting to my love for him. But that wasn't the whole part. After a short period of time, I decided to tell him that I was in love with him. But, before while I was living in this confusion, he got a girlfriend. They acted so in love, and he then showed that he was in love with her. I'm not jealous, I act like I'm happy for them, but I am DYING inside. Like its literally a knife to the heart. I decided to tell him anyway. After I told him, he decided to tell me, that he thinks about me all the time. And he said in a text "I love you, like a brother" it made me happy to see him text that, but I just have it worst. Im happy because I know even though we don't have the same classes in school, we're constantly dozing off thinking about eachother. So there has to be a moment where we were both thinking of eachother at the same time (: So yeah, so happy at this time. Then a little bit later, I wrote him a letter. I included in the letter saying that I was so happy he loved me too, and all that. And here's another thing. I don't think he Corley loves his girlfriend. I think he just likes her personality, and her body. But we're both virgins, so not in a sexual way. I asked him how did he love his girlfriend, he never answered. Which is weird. I wanna straight up tell him that I simply love him more than she does, but then, here's where everything went downhill. I asked him if he told his girlfriend about how we love eachother, here's how it went, the text pattern is me, and then him. "Have you told your girlfriend about this whole thing?" What's there to tell her? Ah, I see, I'm separate. What do you mean? I mean how she's your girlfriend, and all. Woah woah woah, you mean more than a friend? Kinda, (i hid myself here) more as like a super best friend. Look, I love you, but I dont know about a boyfriend thing. And I wasn't asking that (I wasnt going to ask him out, until all these things were settled) are you a homophobe? No, I'm not a homophobe, my cousins gay and I don't hate him, I just don't know about myself. It goes on and on, but I think I got the idea across. I was love sick, literally. I couldn't Talk to my family the same because he was literally stealing my emotions and he walked into my heart and stole it, and I somehow enjoy it, but I want it back if he's gonna play with it. Only me, a friend, and he knows about this whole thing. I love him so much. So here's my question to you. How do I know he's capble of loving me like i love him? I think his girlfriend is gonna break up with him, I can just tell. Or shes already cheating now. How do I tell him that I love him more? How do I get to spend more time with him? How do I get to see his TRUE colors?

• Answer:

  You be a gay fellow! LOL!!! You say him see true colors , you no see true colors. Like all colors of rainbow colors. Be happy you big o'flamer LOL!! That ok God no mind that why he make you so awsome!!