I feel depressed all the time.

I feel so depressed and i'm crying all the time what should i do?

• ever since i moved to lebanon 3 years ago i have been crying all the time at night and i feel so depressed even though i don't show my depression 2 people but people keep hurting me all the time and they also take advantage of me most of my bestfriends betrayed and gossiped about and really hurt me a lot and my friends in skl just keep making fun of me all the time and the person i love loves another girl and me and the person i love are like bestfriends and i told him 3 years ago that i love him but he said he likes as a friend only and that he loves another girl even though she doesn't like him at all and it's been 3 years and just when he was starting 2 fall in love with me he went back loving the other girl bcz she strted flirting with him and this is really hurting me bcz i am always there for him and i'm really nice 2 him and she didn't even care about him i just don't get it why does he love her i'm a really good person and a really great friend and i would never betray anyone but why do people treat me like **** all the time and btw i'm also not really close with my family i just don't know why all of this is happening 2 me i honestly don't know what i did 2 deserve this and there are aslo lots of things i haven't said bcz it's too long but i feel like i just can't take it anymore i feel like everyone hates me i only have one great bestfriend but i rarely see her bcz her parents don't allow her 2 go out of the house often abd she's not in my skl either btw i'm 14 so ifeel the weight of the world is on me and i can;t take it anymore i have even had thoughts of suicide but i know i will never do that but please i have 2 get out of my depression and plz don't say anything about medicines or psychiatrists bcz my parents will really think i'm crazy and will keep tormenting me about it i feel so confused

• Answer:

  You are still young so you shouldn't think to seriously about relationships . In my opinion , there is no such thing as love when you are only a teenager . Boys , most of the time, do not take their relationships really seriously, if the girl is pretty and nice, he'll go out with her, it's simple as that. For girls, they think too deeply in the matter and cry too often about it. Most of the teen relationships I know have lasted for a few weeks , maybe a few months, and at the beginning they say they would forever be together, but like I said , they didn't last. Friends come and go. Don't get too attached to someone too easily and label them as your best friend too quickly. If I consider everybody I know my friend, I would be one popular kid, but I don't. I consider a few my friends and nobody is my best friend. If your ''friends'' don't treat you well, find new ones. Do not think about suicide since it is not worth it. Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. He will not love you even if you die. You are still young. The normal life spawn of a human being is 80 years old. You're 14, do the math, you have only lived 17.5% of your life and a lot of humans live even more than that. If you compare your life to a game, you are only a beginner. You're not an amateur, not a semi-pro nor a pro. Only a beginner. You have all your life to find the right one for you. You're too young to die. As for your depression, I would suggest find a hobby to help your forget your problems. Like watch some animes, dramas, play games or even just read a book. Some teens might find reading a book useless and boring but I assure you, reading a book can be fun. :) As for your depression, I would suggest to find a hobby to let yourself forget about your problems.