How Television changed the quality of life?

Severe emotional crisis regarding love,bad life,hopelessness,academic failure,short tempered father and so on.?

• I don’t know where to start. Even I don’t know why am I writing this. No matter what my problems are almost impossible to solve. I am Arnab Manna, a boy of a middle class family. Currently I am 23+. My latest status(es)/Problems/Situations/Complicat… are as follows: 1. I have lost total 3 of my academic years, for different reasons. 2. Just completed my 3rd year’s examination of B.Sc. Zoology Hons. Degree course. Performance was very bad and expecting very low score, hence future/chances of further study is bleak. 3. My father is very short tempered throughout his life and heavy quarreling/disturbance in family during the whole family history. And as I have grown up, now and then father use to torture me also mentally now and then for valid or invalid reasons. He used to throw very painful comments which are very hard to bear/forget. 4. There is lack of love in between all of my family members. 5. My sister is also resembles my father’s nature. Due to frequent fight for negligible reasons recently I have almost stopped talking with her. 6. I can’t understand my mother’s nature rightly. 7. I have no strong mental bond with neither of my family. I can easily leave my home or die. 8. I am abnormal looking as my head and face is abnormally big. 9. I am accumulating more and more fat in my body. 10. My hair is losing fast and close to baldness as I have a family background of late teen or early twenty’s baldness. The crown part has become almost bald and the rest frontal area also has a very thin hairline and day by day hair fall continues and the thinning increasing. 11. Idea of suicide is very old for me, from an as young as age of almost13-14. I have once tried to suicide during class ix by consuming 20 sleeping pills. But somehow survived. 12. I am hopeless sorrowful lonely for long long time. Sometimes it had changed. 13. I have fallen in love for a classmate during 1st year of graduation. I love her very deeply and truly till now. But it’s a one side love. Many incidents happened during 5 years of time. For some while we two have spent some very memorable moments. She is a very good girl. Her family is against love. She had some bitter past experiences. In between thes 5 years for almost long 2 years she hadn’t kept any contact with me. But for the last 1.5 years we are in touch. We have spent some quality times and regularly we talk over phone. But all as a friend, from her side. She knows I love her. She admitted to me that she believes that my love for her is pure. But she cant accept me. I don’t know what exactly she thinks or what exactly the main reason for not accepting me. May be the pressure from her home is the main reason or may be in her sub conscious mind, my looks may be a big reason. But she is an wonderful girl. She is different from others. I cant forget her. I cant spend my life without her. I cant love anyone else in my life. Even for sometimes I think to kill myself if I lose her permanently. She is my only hope in my life. My future is dark without her. Every day every time I think about only and only her. 14. Whenever I go through a dark phase or hard time the thoughts of getting her in life, the thoughts of my future with her gives me enogh ray of hope to kick away all my negative thoughts. There are times during those 2 detachment year when I had thoughts of suicide again and again but then I used to think that if I die I close any probabilities of uniting with her in future. And thus shed my suicide thoughts. 15. I always fear of losing her, fear of losing contact with her. 16. Most recently she had some fight with her father and her father is planning her marriage in short time. And though she is against marriage now but she is helpless in this situation and she will eventually agree what her father decides for her. 17. Off late after giving the final grad. Examination I was planning for job but news of her marriage left me shattered. 18. My family situation is not so good currently and I was planning to leave my house after I get any job offer. 19. But again I am so so hopeless and I m thinking of killing myself again. 20. I don’t want to live any more. Why should I ? 21. I have failed to fulfill my father’s dreams. 22. I have lost the ability to study hard and to make a good academic result. 23. My confidence level is very low and I have many inferiority complex, specially about my looks. 24. I have my own thoughts/own views. which is changing according to situation, time or many other factors. I think I am honest. I can distinguish good and bad. I always, if not, most the time go for good. Most of peole, friends say I am good, but though I don’t know what they think actually. I always try to be a good person. 25. My good friends are few. Slowly they are becoming busy in their own lives. No time for friends. Now a days the girl I love is my best friend. We used to give time for one another.

• Answer:

  Please don't ever try to kill yourself!! Imagine how your loved ones would feel. The anguish would never end for them. It would take a PERMANENT TOLL on them. You don't have to kill yourself! You can have “a life” in JESUS (John 10:9-10) In Jesus, life can be far better and peaceful, but the first step is to never give up on yourself! PLEASE, pray to Him (Jesus.) Pour out your heartaches to Him. Trust me, Jesus Christ will HEAR your prayer, and can (with time,) heal ALL of your wounds. Put your trust in Him, that He CARES about you, and will listen to your concerns. He LOVES you so much and even knew you when you were in your mother's womb! "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you...." - Jeremiah 1:5. No matter who you are, God LOVES you and wants to give you a FUTURE and everlasting life. “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” That being said, suicide is a SIN. A sin that will send you to Hell (a place of eternal punishment and a place that there's no escape from.) All those who reject Jesus Christ and die in their sins (and suicide,) will be cast into the 'Lake of Fire' (Hell) forever. Hell is definitively a REAL place, and once you go there, there's no getting out! You can go on Youtube and watch many people's testimonies about dying and going to Hell. You can start watching here; http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=i+went+to+hell+testimony&oq=hell+testimony&aq=9m&aqi=g9g-m1&aql=&gs_sm=1&gs_upl=8791l12247l0l16023l14l14l0l0l0l0l457l2371l2-3.1.3l7l0 Though one may not understand the severity of God sentencing a person to burn in Hell for all eternity, as punishment for sin, we must realize that God is far more holy and just than we could ever imagine. Your life, and body belongs to GOD, who created you. PS; God promises us that one day in the future; "He (Jesus) will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." - Revelation 21:4. When you have a relationship with Jesus, things ALWAYS get better with time. He loves you and wants you to have a future. A wonderful future which includes EVERLASTING life. :-) I would also get a Bible from somewhere and start reading it from the New Testament (the book of Matthew.)