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PLEASE HELP ME IM SO DEPREESED AND I DONT WANNA B HURTING LIKE THIS AND THE PAIN WONT GO AWAY?

• Please to any one with a heart, Please hear a brothers cry for help. Were all brothers and sisters. I've never done this beofre and never ever thought I would b here I used to see people being suicidal and thought it was a cry for attention I honest to God never realized how much a person could hurt emontiaonally Know every time I see somebody writing these kinda pages My heart goes out to you and your family besucase I understand how difficult this is It messes up your whole perception of life, You cant think straiight Cant excersise and you dont even freel like going out or even talking to anybody at all Well thats exacty how I feel right know and I cant describe to you how painful this is. Its honeslty so bad that my stomach feels knotted from all the emotional pain and I cant even tell if theres actually something in stomach thats not right.My whole world is upside down literally I should be going out and enjoying life yet Im on yahoo wirting about my depressing sadness. Its truthfully so humiliating and I just cant bare it. I dont want this pain but its swallowing me up. To any one who has or have ever felt this way I feel you from the bottom of my heart this is unreal, its unsettling and not fair for us that we feel this way. I personally feel so down that my past personal problems that I let go keep haunting me and I just cant seem to forget about. All the dreams I should be chasing right know in my life is shattered and I dont think Ill ever build that mentailty to pursure them again. I lost my job I have no money I have no friends they all seem to diss me alot and I just cant understand why, and even think they wanna see my fall so they can all have a laugh about it. Its really disgusting. My familys starting to think I may be going mental. And I honesley think my father and sibling dont care. The thing that break my heart is seeing me mom look at me in sorrow and not knowing how to help her son. She know im down and I would do anything so she wouldnt have to feel this way. I keep thinking If I kill myself how would she feel and how owuld she go on. But the saddest part is that Im so lost I dont know a way out . I think my so called friends keep trying to call me but only so they can ruin my life and It really hurts and I cant do anything bescause Im gunna have to see them eventally.It makes me feel weak, cowardley, depressed and alone and thats the worst feeling any man can evry endure. I lost my sex life. Ive been smoking so much weed and I know its bad but Its only thing that works and Ive been smoking alot and its become such a habit and its getting impossible to stop. And My problems keep getting worse. And the worst part is Im sbsolulety clueless on how this can b resolved that i just think its impossible. I dont wwant this pain anymore but it wont stop hurting me. I can im past rock bottom, Im feelin suidicdal kn ow and I feel like theres an inner demon telling me just do it and itll al b over and then I feel like like IM going to hell. I cant explain to anybody what this feels like bescause the pain is just to overwhelming. Im a good guy with a good heart. i had a disease when Iw as younger and I dont know if its affecting me. This feeling is humlitaing,hopeless, cowardley, embarrasing, pitiful, weak, alone, depresseing, lonley, self destructing emotinailly physcially and mentally. I feel helpless and I feel trapped in my own life. I honestley cannot explanio to anybody this feeling. I can only imaghine hell like this bescause all hell could b is physical torture. This is something that I woudlnt even wish on the people who have done me wrong. IIf any one else has felt like this or is feeling like this, Dont take it to rough bescause I guarentee you what Im feelng i, the best way to describe it, torture in my own body my own mind and in my own life this is the worst possible thing that any perosn could ever feel and I think I just really need some one. Any one whos willing to listen, Please I wouldnt b on here if I could handle this, its to much, I actually think suicide seems less painful than this. somebody please, I repeat anybody please help me.so I can help others. im willing to suffer so others may b happy but how can I when I cant even breathe propley sitting here typing this.These sick ***** people in my life who I cant get away from and I have to face have destroyed me completley, and the saddest part I have absolutley no one I can turn to at this point.

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