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What is wrong with me? (diagnose me)?

• - i feel like i could easily kill someone if i wasn't afraid of the consequences. - It doesn't take much for me to wish death upon someone, even though i know i would do the same. Ex: being an ex drug user i have been schemed a few times, and even though it was for only about 40 bucks at most, if i had the opportunity to end their lives without getting caught, i would do it in a heart beat. In fact, the last guy who schemed 20 bucks for a few fake E tabs about two years ago, (oh yeah, i forgot to mention, i hold a grudge that i can't ever let go.) i have been talking to him recently, telling him about how i am a "recreational heroin user" and that it is impossible to get addicted your first time. with the hopes that he will eventually try heroin and ruin his life. -If someone insults me even just once, or humiliates me in some sort of a way, i constantly fantasize about killing them or somehow making their lives unbearable. To sum up my last two points, I feel like even if the act committed against me wasn't too harsh, the fact that it gets in the way of me having a peaceful existence, makes the bully worthy of death. I just can't let it go, even after years, as long as the memory comes back, i get that sick feeling in my stomach as if it was just committed. -I have no problem stealing money from most people, including family and friends. However, i said most people, though it takes a lot for me to actual know that i would feel guilty taking money or items from you. -I pulled off a solo armed robbery with a knife for drugs on a dealer. I didn't cut him, i just threatened to kill him and i proceeded to beat him up. It was one of the proudest moments in my life. The fact that i knew that i had done something that most people could not. Don't get my wrong i was very afraid before i had committed the crime. Afraid of going to jail and afraid of getting hurt. Even though the dealer was one of the few faithful, nice and honest dealers i have dealt with, i feel no remorse for him. -I spend hours watching gore videos of people getting beheading, shot, run over after maths of car crashes and bombings. I can't stop, for some reason, it intrigues me. I lie to people and mess with them even though there is nothing to gain from it, i just do it for the sake of knowing i can do it. I find it quite humoring. -i have been in few serious relationships with girls(all lasting a month at most). I feel like no matter how attractive they are, i learn more and more about them and i quickly become turned off. Not to mention that the second i have accepted the fact that i have gotten with them, its no longer an accomplishment to be with them. -I think that most people are retarded, (i don't think i am smart at all, just slightly above average ) are extremely predictable and have obvious intentions. -I think that people with dreams of how they plan on succeeding in life are delusional. - I would do virtually anything for the right price. I think that people who don't think that money can buy happiness, just don't know where to shop. I thin about how if i had a button, that if i had pressed, the outcome of pressing that button would be that someone in the world would die and i would gain a mere 1000 dollars. Let me tell you, i would be mashing on that button as fast as i could for hours and hours a day. Don't get my wrong though, i think about how there are people that love them the same way i love my brothers. However, for the benefit of my existence, i could careless what would happen to them. -I am generally not an aggressive person. I do not get in fights with other that often due to the fact that i have generalize anxiety disorder, but i do constantly think about how i would of wanted to deal with the situation through violence and harsh words. -I can't remember when was the last time i had felt guilty for doing something wrong. -I fantasize about ruling a country and how i would make it a terrible place for most people. The sent of death would be a common one. I would use whatever force necessary to expand my land and grow in power. Anways, Thanks for taking time time to read this. I look forward to reading your answers! -Michael

• Answer:

  You probably have something inside you that is stemming a request for revenge. That's why you wish it upon others, and you attempt to gain justification for your actions by placing yourself upon a pedestal. You say no one else could overpower a drug dealer, which you should know is false. There likely isn't a good enough reason to do so. Your ability to swing power aimlessly makes you feel dominant and confident, and the fact that you break out of society by stealing and making yourself happy without care for others, makes you feel independent. Honestly, I'd simply hope that through understanding of how your actions cause reactions, you'd decide to change your ways. The people who possess the ability to reach the top, don't always want to do so. You mentioned that you get angry when someone displeases you, yet you do cruel things to others on an apparent regular basis. A sense able person would avoid you, and someone with similar issues would probably attempt to kill you, as you would them. It would be like an Alpha male sort of thing, even though the idea of being Alpha is only self-absorbent behavior that's displayed via physical violence and self-manipulation. Do you have any other questions, or have a goal you're trying to achieve from your psychiatric evaluation?