What are some good eating disorder related songs?

When should I seek help for my eating disorder?

• It's just that I don't know whether or not it's serious enough, what if my mum thinks I'm just attention seeking or something? I have been actively 'dieting' for about two years now, and just recently (about two months ago) I started binging and purging instead of restricting. I have also been exercising to the point where I feel as if I'm going to pass out. I 'binge' and 'purge' at least four or five times a week and I never eat more than 800 calories a day - which I obviously count obsessively. I constantly think about my weight and what I can do to loose weight and I honestly break down every time I get on the scale and see that I've either gained or not lost any weight. I feel like it's killing me! I don't know what to do any more, I just want it to stop. I hate feeling like this; I even started cutting myself to distract myself from my weight related thoughts. I just don't know whether or not it's serious enough to tell anyone about. I mean I'm 5'6 and I weigh 62kg. So it's not like I'm underweight or anything, God I feel so fat every time I look in the mirror. I don't know if I even have an eating disorder it's just that my friends and family keep making jibes at me about how I always exercise after a meal, how I don't like eating in restaurants and stuff and how I always count the calories and fat grams in the foods that I have. But I just feel like if they've noticed all that and not confronted me about it then it must not be that serious enough for a doctor to say that I have an eating disorder, I mean if the people I'm around all the time don't seem to care or notice then why should a stranger? Besides, my sister just got pregnant again (she had a miscarriage at 16) and all the drama that's come along with that (she's a pathological liar and a thief (stolen more than a thousands pounds from my mum by stealing her credit cards along with her scumbag boyfriend who she's pregnant with (she's been trying to have a baby for the past two years...)) and having nowhere to live and probably having to move back in with us) that they'll just think that I'm attention seeking and that they won't believe me. I don't know what to do any more. I just want this to end. I hate feeling like this! I'm constantly researching eating disorders and visiting pro-ana/mia websites and whenever I read an article on anorexia, bulimia, depression, BDD, OCD, low-self esteem issues etc. I always see myself in them, everything they're going through I've been or am going through. This sucks I hate every second of my pathetic existence and I have contemplated committing suicide numerous times. If you could also tell me what eating disorder you think I have (if I have one at all) and what you think I should do about it; if I do something about it, their I'm not going to send me to a looney bin, am they?

• Answer:

  I love how you don't deny and research eating disorder. That is the first step, acceptance. The second is accepting help and I think if someone offered you help you wouldn't push them away. It sounds like bullimia to me. The purging, low SE and over-exercising are the most common signs. Help is extremely important before you become underweight and ill, the sooner you get help the quicker the recovery and higher SE. Tell your parents! You are just as important as your sister and you need to make sure your parents know about how you feel less important. Get help! Please?:)