How do you support yourself while in nursing school?

I need help. I need to focus on school and I just need words of encouragement. Long story, about my life.Sorry?

• I am 19 years old, a teen mom, and a sophomore in college .Lately, I have been depressed because of the grades that I have received. I was a good student in high school. I managed to graduate with a 3.6 GPA, which could have been higher, but was a little busy with my pregnancy and my boyfriend my sophomore year. My daughter is my motivation and my motivation/determination has led me to do wonderful things like continue my education and even get a full ride to a great college. I was very proud of myself in HS l and was determined to do even better in college. My father was a nurse and that was the career choice that I want for myself as well. Recently, I have been disappointed with myself. I did well my freshman year of college and during my first semester of sophomore year, but this last term has been very difficult for me. I am taking biology, chemistry, an ESS class and a statistics class. I am not doing well in any class and this second semester is over this month. I'm scared to fail, I'm scared to lose my scholarship, and I am scared because I feel that I have lost my determination. I do not know how I did so well before because now it's completely different. I do not want to switch my major and I plan to continue with nursing school. I feel that my personal life has interrupted my school life. I do not have time for the "college life" and I barely have time for my life. I live with my mother, who at the moment cannot have my father here with us because my older sister put him in jail and sued us for 2.5 million dollars; she almost took our home. He was sentenced to 15yrs in prison last year and I still feel like I have not gotten over it. My father pushed me to my full potential and he constantly reminded me to give my all in school. He challenged me to put my heart, mind, and soul into my studies. I have a 5 and 17yr old sister and a 13 yr old brother. After my father was put in prison,I had to take care of my siblings and my child as well. My mother works right after I get out of school and is off at 2am. I also have a bf who I have been with for 5 years and is the father of my child. I have been with him so long and I love the idea of having my family together. I broke up with him last year, but he begged me to take him back and I told him I would if his behavior changed and only if he became more responsible. I told him that I wanted him to get us an apartment because I need help and I want to be with my family. He never got it for us, but that didn’t matter as long as he was trying. I told him to be a good example for my daughter, so I told him to stop the entire BS, to stop smoking marijuana, to stop talking to other girls, and to just be honest with me. I know I am dumb for taking him back, but all I wanted was for him spend more time with his family. He tried that and was doing so well. I stopped checking his phone, I stopped accusing him of things he used to do and we started all over again. I started to trust him and I was so happy. I thought he was really going to change, especially after everything he did to me in the past, but he didn’t, he had just gotten better at hiding the truth and I just never found out about it, until one day I met up with a good friend I had not seen in 6 months. She told me that her roommate, who has just moved in and is also a good friend of my bf, was still smoking with him. Her roommate asked her if he could bring a friend and that friend was my bf. She also told me she found him at a club she had just started going to and that her friends, who go there often, have seen him there with his friends plenty of times before that. He always tells me that he goes home right after work that he has no money, that he can't afford to pay child support, but he can spend it on drugs and clubs/partying instead of helping us and being with us. He lied to me about all that and it hurts to know he has lied to me so many times and I believed him. Like on Thanksgiving, he lied to me about working. His job was open that day, but he never went to work. He lied to me about the charges on his debit card which he lied and said his mom used his card. He promised me that he was going to change his behavior since the last question I posted, and still even after that, he still talked to other girls, talked to my sisters friends who are like 16 years old;he is about to be 23 years old. He just keeps on lying and is always trying to ask for forgiveness, but I never see him changing. He may say sorry, but I do not understand why he cannot change when it has been 5 years. He can go days without seeing me, and it sucks because I spend my time moping about my life. I just wanted my daughter to have a father. My life sucks and school, my daughter, my siblings, my boyfriend, my dad's situation is just too crazy right now.I need words of wisdom, of encouragement or any type of help/ words that can bring me back up to do doing good things in my life,because right now,

• Answer:

  well i have read all about what you are trying to focus on and what you want to achieve my conclusion is you are trying so hard to take far too much on by yourself this is not an easy task for you when you have a b/f that is no good to you so get shut of him for a start concentrate on trying to get some help with your siblings and your daughter you are only 19 to take so much on by yourself. do you have any friends that could help you with these children as far as education goes once you get help you may be able to concentrate in collage but at the moment you need to get the help or you will not be able to go to collage as yet. your b/f is not interested you can do better without him. you are bringing bring up just another child i feel sorry for you at such a young age this is happening when you so much want a career but you are going to have to put this on hold for a few more yrs you can still do it you are still young enough.all i can say is you may have to be a stay at home mom for the time been till you get everything sorted out i hope this all works out for you believe me it will.