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Why am I sooo easy all of a sudden? Please help, I dont know where else to go?

• So a little back info; I met my dad maybe two times (people say that that affects a females relationship with males, who knows?). Im not close to my mother. I fell madlyyyy in love with a guy about a year & a half ago & he broke my heart :( ever since then I havent cared much at all about having 'feelings' for guys. I became kind of callus towards them. Dont get me wrong, I dont believe that 'every guy is the same', I just.. idk. That changed my outlook on stuff. I also dont believe in 'the one'. I lost my virginity to my first love & ive had one sexual partner after him. They were both my bestfriend at some point, they both hurt me but I recently got back on speaking terms with the second body. Anyway my question is why am I so easy all of a sudden? I have an ex who im possibly thinking of sleeping with. Im speaking to like 2 guys & im interested in 2 at my job (one more than the other). Also, I flirt all the time, its almost like i cant help it. But i dont think anything of it, its out of fun for me. Im really close to another guy, hes like my brother, I call him Bro, he calls me sis. I can tell him ANYTHING & he can do the same. Doesnt matter what it is, he like my bestfriend but we dont use that title. We lived in the same house for a short time & nothing happened between us. I have ABSOLUTELY NO feelings for him other than friendship & brother love. He trusts me & asked to perform oral sex on me for experience & practice & im considering it. I also think of sleeping with one of the guys that im 'talking' to. I dont know him that well tho so i doubt it. MY QUESTION IS: Whyyyy am I so easy all of a sudden? Before my first love I wanted to wait until I was married to have sex. Even after him, i felt disgusted that I had allowed myself to disappoint myself. Then.. I just stopped caring. I really dont understand, I have a good heart. I dont have romantic feelings for any of these guys. Except the 2nd one, he helped me alot with the breakup :( but we messed up by having sex, we're just working on getting our friendship back together, yes i regret it.. I know you guys are complete strangers but please help

• Answer:

  It sounds like because you don't have a male role model you're looking for something to fill that void. You know this, but you can't choose sex for that attention and expect it to make you feel better. You need to find someone you trust and look up to and keep it platonic. Don't set yourself up for failure. Make sure you are doing this for yourself and tell yourself that you are worth getting this figured out.