Does anyone know where I can find a mannequin?

I am trying to find the american dream, does anyone know where I can find it, or at least start looking?

• I cant remember how long its been since I have read a book, hell I cant even remeber the last book i attempted to read; and any book I would in the least bit consider wreading would be a howto book or something that will teach me a skiill or something I can practically use. I dont understand why7 people read fiction books it seems like a copmplete waste of time to me. But theen I sit back and look at myself watching episode after episode of tv series onlione. Its the same ******* thing only worse.Its a waste of damn time and dont get me wrong I am not trying to say that reading fiction is actually a complete wate of time. There are lots of people and doctors and stuff that say its actually good for you to read. Its just my opinion that fiction is a waste of time; even though I cnt seem to kick this habit of watching all tthese tv shows like its some ******* pile of cocaine on New years eve t a girls gone wild party in Times square. But thaats life for you, it seems like yo ualways want to do something, you always wanna be that guy, you wanna make something of yourself, you wanna tear through life to the fullest, not skip around in all which ways, but have a solid purpose that absolutely nothing and I mean absolutely nothing can change your ways of, and raise hell getting it. But you can never manage to start, if you could only start , if I could only start id bve fuiine, but I gotta take care of this first and I gotta do that, and its my day off I wanna relax. NO, Thats bullshit if u want it I mean really ******* want it you know the feeling Im talking about ull get it. It seems like not oionly do I feel that less and leasss as I move on through life but I cant make myself start, ever no matter what, and that s what happens time and time again, and know I am starting to feeel my window of opportunity getting smaller and smaller quicker and quicker. I had someone tell me once when I was about 21-22 and thinking I was so young and how I had so much time ahead of me; I was at a party with my neighbor and some of his older friends, and I was talking to them about what I forget, but I remeber this one guy who I was cool with but I cant remebeer his name even though I had met nnumerous times. But I can remember what he said to this day, I remember what color blue his jacket was, I remeber I was facing Northeast aas he faced me to the southwest, and he said: "Everyone reaches their peak" when Iheard this I couldnt fathonm it whatsoever, I mean I thought I did, but I didnt really but as I eventually started to undersstand it more and more it started to get to me, because everyday you go on thinking about what you want to be when you grow up and you have your whole life planned and whats gonna happen. ANd why the **** we do we all do this? It doesnt make sense at all people have lways had plans and paths to follow with a desired outcome they even have contingancy plans in case their real plan falls through, and they may have a contingincy contingcy plan, but none of that means **** itll never happen exactly how you expect it to, it never will and we as humans know this fact inside and out, we point it out to others we tell our kids that when they say they want to be a baseball player or a proffesional skateboarder when they grow up. But everyday that goes by that we are just planning and not just doing it is one less day to enjoy what ever its, or one more day that beats you. But no matter what we also make this life plans, and yes some may stick to them fairly well but most of us will strauy to an extent. But why dont we just realixze that these plans are not gonna happen the way ewealways want them too. But when I was told " Everyone eventually reaches their peak" and I realized what that meant, that soon even if I wasdestined to do something in this world and in my life and do it well there will be a point of noreturn where I can never get this peak, or I amy never reach because I hesitated and started too late, maybe because of laziness, but most likely because of the fear of the unknown, the fear of failure, the fear of that plan not working out how I want it too, and being a failure. So its ironic how fear of becoming a failure can ultimately set you up for failure, and I think in same way or another we all know that. But like with anything in life we do it any way cause we want to. We smoke even thiough it gives you a death sentence, we drink even though all the problems we know about it, Drugs are great! whihch is why we do them but their bad for us. But why if you fear of be ing a loser its easy to attain quickly too for that matter. And I know what you are all thinking, its your choice and the people who do want to do what it takes will make it and then the others wont. Which is definitlly true and true indeed. But why is it so hard to do when you can think it through and it seems so simple, maybe its the overthinking that does it and over analyizing. Who the **** knows and reall

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  And with that,,,,I think its time ti revisit the dosage. SL